Has anyone here attempted despite believing you would never be able to? How?

[Leichter Kampfwagen]

Has anyone here attempted despite believing you would never be able to? How did you overcome your fear/procrastination? I don't want to still be alive when I'm 23 but I'm scared that I will never be able to bring myself to pull the trigger/swallow the SN/turn the gauge/jump.

Thinking about pomodoro method to plan/research for 10 mins a day lol.

 

[madscotsman]

Triex partial hanging, cushioned hanging, many times, just can't let go when the blacking out starts, ligature strangulation with a bandanna was the only thing that worked, big bandanna wapped and tied as tight as possible to start with, then a metal straw stuck in between it and neck, nice and long gives good leverage and turnt until I started jerking about, blacking out that quick was almost nice, buzzing my head and thinking "this could be it, I just close my eyes" backed out again because of instincts but I don't know why because I could've ignored them, there's something inside me that says just keep going always.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Why do you wanna die before you're 23 y/o?

Either we're sure we wanna leave or we're not sure about it and the younger we are the more difficult this decision probably is. "Deadlines" also put more pressure on us than we might wanna have on top of the general pressures that make us suicidal.

 

[Leichter Kampfwagen]

Why do you wanna die before you're 23 y/o?

Either we're sure we wanna leave or we're not sure about it and the younger we are the more difficult this decision probably is. "Deadlines" also put more pressure on us than we might wanna have on top of the general pressures that make us suicidal.

I just don't want to be alive another year. Its not really a debate anymore. Just trying to overcome procrastination and SI. Also I don't really have a lot of pressure right now. I'm pretty chill, which is half of the problem because I don't have a strong impetus to CTB at the moment. However it is a temporary situation that is allowing me to be chill and is unsustainable.