has anyone experienced this after a failed attempt?

[finish.me]

hi. it's been gettingreally hard recently and i've been thinking a lot about the way i used to be, and ive kept this huge detrimental thing that has been progressively making life harder ever since my last attempt to myself, so im finally gonna talk about it. i want to know if anyone has experienced this: when you realized you had survived or more specifically you were found or stopped from being succesful, did anything change with you mentally? I don't have an internal monologue anymore. I don't fantasize or have the ability to think in depth, like i'm constantly in a foggy haze. My attempt was 5 years ago now, and the one thing that satiated me and made me feel good was sleeping and taking Vicodin to replicate that nice cozy feeling. but i have no access to drugs and i can't sleep, so everything is really horrible at the moment. I wish i could feel something that wasn't discomfort or confusion again.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I got an Rx for Seroquel. It helps with sleep. I wish I could get better meds, but this is all I was given. It counteracts n...but whatever. Just saying it's not hard to get if you have healthcare and can go in for sleep issue.

 

[cantseethelight]

hi. it's been gettingreally hard recently and i've been thinking a lot about the way i used to be, and ive kept this huge detrimental thing that has been progressively making life harder ever since my last attempt to myself, so im finally gonna talk about it. i want to know if anyone has experienced this: when you realized you had survived or more specifically you were found or stopped from being succesful, did anything change with you mentally? I don't have an internal monologue anymore. I don't fantasize or have the ability to think in depth, like i'm constantly in a foggy haze. My attempt was 5 years ago now, and the one thing that satiated me and made me feel good was sleeping and taking Vicodin to replicate that nice cozy feeling. but i have no access to drugs and i can't sleep, so everything is really horrible at the moment. I wish i could feel something that wasn't discomfort or confusion again.

Hey, im sorry to hear about how difficult things are and I truly wish you sort of relief from the struggle you are facing.

Even though It wasn't a cause of an unsuccessful attempt, however I can resonate with the loss of an internal monologue, not being able to think in depth as well as stringing pieces of information together/lack of memory. All which make conversations very difficult and anything for that matter.

did you say this happened to you right after your attempt 5 years ago? We're you out in any sort of medication?

 

[finish.me]

Hey, im sorry to hear about how difficult things are and I truly wish you sort of relief from the struggle you are facing.

Even though It wasn't a cause of an unsuccessful attempt, however I can resonate with the loss of an internal monologue, not being able to think in depth as well as stringing pieces of information together/lack of memory. All which make conversations very difficult and anything for that matter.

did you say this happened to you right after your attempt 5 years ago? We're you out in any sort of medication?

i appreciate the kind words. im actually relieved you can relate too, even though it sucks- like its somewhat soothing to know im not alone in it. if you don't mind me going into detail, this happened literally the second after i'd been walked in on. my parents came and found me and it was horrible. they didn't actually do anything to help afterwards though, i never went to a hospital, i was never previously on medication, like the very second i heard my parents scream it's like everything in my brain just turned off. I didn't even sleep a couple minutes that night and i kept going in and out of consciousness the rest of the week instead of properly sleeping. it was extremely bad, but i ended up adapting to this new headspace. i did actually get hospitalized a couple years afterwards like in 2019, and the medication i was on didn't do shit. i forget what it was but i think it was an antipsychotic.

 

[livinginthepast]

I got an Rx for Seroquel. It helps with sleep. I wish I could get better meds, but this is all I was given. It counteracts n...but whatever. Just saying it's not hard to get if you have healthcare and can go in for sleep issue.

How much were u given??

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

How much were u given??

I first got it for 50mg twice a day. I wanted more so got 200 mg twice a day but only take it once a day. I regretted this so got another Rx for 50 mg a day. I'm taking 200 mg right now. It helps me stay asleep instead of waking up every 2 hours. I heard that I have to get off all meds if I want to take n so will have to do that if I decide to order and take n. I'd prefer to get better antianxiety meds but the Drs. here don't give a fuck and think benzos are dangerous. I hate them.

 

[Anonymous_A]

I got an Rx for Seroquel.. It counteracts n...but whatever.

It doesn't counteract n. It increases drowsiness lol

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

It doesn't counteract n. It increases drowsiness lol

The person Lonely posted excerpts from the PPH and it says antipsychotics make the coma last longer and don't let it end. Lonely wrote in Seroquel next to text. It's one of her/his posts. I'm not going to risk it.

 

[Anonymous_A]

The person Lonely posted excerpts from the PPH and it says antipsychotics make the coma last longer and don't let it end. Lonely wrote in Seroquel next to text. It's one of her/his posts. I'm not going to risk it.

Literally just google interactions.
Honestly your best off not taking all of what you hear/see on here as gospel.

(Heck, I could be a kid that's pretending to be a scientist with drugs lol)

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Literally just google interactions.
Honestly your best off not taking all of what you hear/see on here as gospel.

(Heck, I could be a kid that's pretending to be a scientist with drugs lol)

Sure, I will Google interactions, but I read it from a page she/he added from the PPH.