has anyone ever run away from home before?

[monetpompo]

i just want to know if i can. i know i probably can't. it just sucks to think that suicide is really my only way out. i think i might be too stupid and weak to pass the asvab on my own. i really want to run away from home but i don't have anywhere to go besides shelters. i want to get rid of my phone and computer because i don't really care about having them or using them. i don't want to be a neet anymore, but if i'm not a neet then i'm homeless or dead. there's no one willing to take me in. i would just end up having less opportunities because i don't even have a car. i keep thinking about putting myself in a mental hospital but the last time i did they didn't give me the medication they perscribed me while i was there. part of me wishes that there was somewhere i could be taken forever because i'm too stupid to think for myself. my life is going absolutely nowhere.

 

[kopebaldy]

I don't recommend it if you don't have a solid plan and determination to either CTB or start your life over tbh.
You'll just lock yourself from what little resources you already have.

 

[Promised Heaven]

I considered strongly about running away at the age of 12 due to intense stress. 12 year old me thought a camera, two bottles of squeeze candy, a blanket, mp3 on one battery, and 3 bottles of water would last me a long time. Glad I never did go through with it. But I was close.

After that, I've researched intensely on what life would be after running away. Depending on where you live, the weather will be a major challenge. First, if people notice you're gone, authorities will try to seek you (cameras are everywhere nowadays), you need a source of food, water, bathroom, the sorts. People may take advantage of you or even worse hurt you out there. And you can only carry so much and you'll inevitably forget something important.

If you have stable housing and your life isn't in any physical danger, I strongly advise against running away. You could hypothetically die, but it won't be quick, painless, or comforting. You'll make your life worse especially if you don't have plans afterwards and just want to escape.

 

[moonlightbeach]

i have no experience with it, but i think it would make the situation harder as you would constantly need to worry about shelter and you might not be able to find it in time. it's risky and i would only ever do it if i had friends to stay over at. however, i have been looking into different assisted-care facilities but scrapped it because of the same reason that @kopebaldy mentioned.

i say try an exercise that will make you feel safer. if you seek a comfortable environment to stay in then, if you have any activities soon, spend most of the day there so once you get home you've exhausted yourself and the location doesn't really matter anymore. this will keep you up for a few days.
additionally, if you have a friend that you can spend a day with AND stay over during the night - that would be even more awesome! i developed this strategy when i was living in a toxic environment and i would spend most days in the local concert scene and also make plans with friends at their place.

you don't have to think about the future with the car, financial support and wards. try to get through the day and see how you're feeling then.
how are you today love? have anything on your mind or planned?