Lady black
35 male, central Europe, German speaking
- Oct 22, 2018
- 1,192
God I hope you're right but I don't believe it. the sick bastsrd that created all this probably has new tortures waiting but it will happen anywayI will...though I think that death means emptiness, non-existence, overwhelming peace and calm
nobody knows but I hope there is simply nothing afterwardsGod I hope you're right but I don't believe it. the sick bastsrd that created all this probably has new tortures waiting but it will happen anyway
I know what you are talking about. Instinct is very strong. May you have peaceful journeyFor months and months involving relentless testing of partial, at the 11th hour I've decided to go full. Don't want to leave anything to chance. Of course I also will have fierce SI to try overcome. I truly hope I can.
I don't want to be saved. It would be horrible...For me it didn´t hurt, before i was saved (after I passed out)
oh...so sorry...it had to be real torture...do you remember the moment when you hanged and fainted?It was horrible, the only pain I felt was after I was "saved" and that was for 2 weaks (head, neck, problems with swallowing)
were you conciousness during convulsions? I have seizures disorder but I'm unconscious when my body convulsed. are you saying you're aware & able to stop the convulsionsIt was a strange experience during one of my partial attempts where I actually felt the convulsions start. A bizarre experience, my body doing something outwith my control. It was weird not being able to see anything but feeling my body enter the early stages of the dying process. It didn't actually feel entirely unpleasant.
death is my goal, yes...I expect some pain, blurred vision, weakness and inability to do anythingI hope so too for you. But the only thing that matters is that you reach your goal then=death
Did you fail at full suspension? If so why?It was horrible, the only pain I felt was after I was "saved" and that was for 2 weaks (head, neck, problems with swallowing)
I've tried hanging a few times, full suspension. If you do it right you feel pressure but not a lot of pain, but once your free from the rope your neck and head are in a lot of pain for awhile.Did you fail at full suspension? If so why?
Why did you fail at it?I've tried hanging a few times, full suspension. If you do it right you feel pressure but not a lot of pain, but once your free from the rope your neck and head are in a lot of pain for awhile.