Thin Chew

Thin Chew

世界以痛吻我 要我报之以歌
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You should see my post. What happen to me when I almost passed out.
 
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limone

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I must admit that I was too stressed and too scared of non-existence which would follow my cbt. Damned survival instinct.
 
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Lady black

Lady black

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Hope it will work for you soon and good luck and a peaceful hanging
 
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limone

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Hope it will work for you soon and good luck and a peaceful hanging
I hope it will be only few days delay. I don't want to be here any more. CBT means for me peace and rest. The only thing I must do is to overcome survival instinct. I am so grateful for your words of support.
 
Lady black

Lady black

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Oct 22, 2018
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I hope I will also hang soon. Yes survival instinct is a bitch, but when you reach the point with no turning bcak, you will kick the stool...
 
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I arranged everything in a way that it won't be botched attempt, no risk of rescue and it shouldn't hurt too much. I hope to be enough strong to kick this stool out finally.
I hope I will also hang soon. Yes survival instinct is a bitch, but when you reach the point with no turning bcak, you will kick the stool...
I arranged everything in a way that it won't be botched attempt, no risk of rescue and it shouldn't hurt too much. I hope to be enough strong to kick this stool out finally.
 
Lady black

Lady black

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Oct 22, 2018
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If you are really ready to die, you will be able, otherwhise you should overthink if you are really ready or if there´s a way to carry on living
 
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If you are really ready to die, you will be able, otherwhise you should overthink if you are really ready or if there´s a way to carry on living
I completely agree. I have reconsidered my decision again and again and I am sure that I want it.
sometimes it's good to give oneself few days more to assure in decision
 
Lady black

Lady black

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Oct 22, 2018
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So you should be ready to kick the stool, maybe it´s also not a good idea to wait too long until you hang. MAybe there´s too much time for overthinking it
 
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So you should be ready to kick the stool, maybe it´s also not a good idea to wait too long until you hang. MAybe there´s too much time for overthinking it
Any delay gives unnecessary torture for me. I hope to be enough strong very soon
 
Lady black

Lady black

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Oct 22, 2018
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Wish you that it will be soon. May keep everything ready to be ready when ever you fell it´s the right time
 
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Wish you that it will be soon. May keep everything ready to be ready when ever you fell it´s the right time
Thank you for support. The noose and stool are prepared and waiting. It may happen any time
 
Lady black

Lady black

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Oct 22, 2018
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May you rest in peace then. May you leave a short good bye in this thread?
 
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limone

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May you rest in peace then. May you leave a short good bye in this thread?
sure, I will leave a message just before my journey
I do appreciate any words helpful to cope with useless animal fright and survival instinct
 
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Which rope will you use?
 
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limone

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it's thick 3/4" (18mm) jute rope, boiled and greased
 
Lady black

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It´s al ittle bit thick, but ok for full suspension
 
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limone

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likely I gonna drop 10-20 cm when I kick out the stool. So thick rope is not bad idea
 
Lady black

Lady black

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That´s true, but for a normal person 10-15mm would be enough
 
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limone

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yeah...I opted for thicker rope to be sure that nothing wrong happens with the set-up. For the same reason I attached a heavy duty dowel in the ceiling
 
Lady black

Lady black

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Oct 22, 2018
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With a thinner rope (not too thin) you will bring more pressure to your neck and pass out faster
 
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limone

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the rope is greased so likely I will pass out in 10-20 seconds
 
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That should work
 
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limone

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I hope...It's my nightmare that I would fall down comatose or paralyzed. Worst thing to happen...so I really want to die peacefully
 
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Lady black

Lady black

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I´m sure it will work if the rope is fixed good
 
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limone

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yes, it is, the the hook is kind of expansion anchor dowel for heavy objects. actually everything is ready and waiting
 
Lady black

Lady black

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Oct 22, 2018
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So don´t let the noose wait to long. Your neck cries for the noose. Sorry for this gallows humor
 
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limone

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no worries...I'm smiling too...death is natural part of life and I must not feel any fright. I will do it very soon to avoid this horrible waiting
 
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Lady black

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Yes eath is an important mpart in our life. And we should be happy that we can end our lifes if we like
 
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I am very happy that I'm going to meet death very soon.
 
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