Story Hanging has failed me.. Thinking of SN tonight.

[Tripz7]

My method has been partial and after alot and i mean alot of attempts. Ive only came close 3 times and let me say all 3 were not pleasant at all.

1. Was with a scarf legs out front. Passed out, awoke to very painful convulsions.. Whole body, Was able to stand and cancel.

2. and 3. (Yesterday) With a military belt. Both times were extremely scary/ panicky after passing out. Was kneeling, awoke confused not able to breathe making loud snoring noises, convulsing. Was able to pull myself up. I actually peed and shat myself a bit (watery stool).. Ehh

The 3rd attempt was similar. The only difference was i was stuck on my knees, panicking wasn't able to cancel but the anchor gave and released me... My throat is marked and definitely hurting like a sore throat.

So, ive been fasting last 5 hours. Contemplating taking my SN.

I have benzos and anti psychotic meds i take.

Just wanted to share. Thx guys for listening.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I'm so sorry, that's so traumatic for you.

 

[Flump]

I have had similar experiences with partial, it just seems impossible! Sorry you had to go through all of that.

 

[Sad_Autistic_boy_101]

Had a couple attempts with partial using a belt. Had One this year that just felt like my head was gonna explode.
Just wish there was a better alternative!

 

[dysfunctional]

Nice determination. Hope you find your peace soon.