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For someone making a first time gun purchase with the intent of ctb, what is the best way to purchase without giving that away? I have never owned a gun before and want to sound somewhat knowledgeable about what I'm asking and try and play it cool enough to not raise suspicians. I was planning on going to a local sporting goods store to purchase it and also take a class on handling it since I never have even handled a gun before. II just don't want to do or say anything to fuck this up! Any advice would be helpful.
 
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I would act like a first time gun buyer if it were me. Let the salesperson do their thing to educate me about guns if it were me, and maybe I would learn something good to know about owning a gun for the first time too from them?
 
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I think you can say 90% of what you said above, without mentioning the suicide.

- I've never handled a gun before
- I want to take classes on handling it
- I'm nervous because I'm so inexperienced

Ask questions primarily. Let the salesman talk, and buy your gun in confidence.
 
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I would act like a first time gun buyer if it were me. Let the salesperson do their thing to educate me about guns if it were me, and maybe I would learn something good to know about owning a gun for the first time too from them?
I am going to do my best to do that. It's so different for me because in my mind, they know why I'm there even if they don't. It's so different than a regular person just interested in starting a hobby vs me knowing i am going to ctb and end my pain. I'm worried my thoughts could be jumbled with so much on the line.
I think you can say 90% of what you said above, without mentioning the suicide.

- I've never handled a gun before
- I want to take classes on handling it
- I'm nervous because I'm so inexperienced

Ask questions primarily. Let the salesman talk, and buy your gun in confidence.
Thanks, I'll definitely try. I have to find out exactly what gun will do the job best as well and become educated on that. It makes sense, my mind makes it a way bigger deal than it probably is because i have so much riding on this.
 
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I have never owned a gun before and want to sound somewhat knowledgeable about what I'm asking and try and play it cool enough to not raise suspicians.
Congrats, that's exactly how you are going to end up raising suspicion.

You haven't mentioned what type of gun you are going to buy. Shotgun? Rifle? Handgun? Whatever chit-chat story you can prepare in advance obviously depends on what type of gun you are going to buy.

In any case, coming off as knowledgeable when you are not, is a guaranteed way to come off clueless and awkward. All you need to know is what general type of gun you want, and the fake story for why. Shotgun because you want to do whatever hunting or recreational shooting, rifle because you want to do whatever, etc.
 
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"Sir, which model is going to end my endlessly miserable existence?"
 
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Congrats, that's exactly how you are going to end up raising suspicion.

You haven't mentioned what type of gun you are going to buy. Shotgun? Rifle? Handgun? Whatever chit-chat story you can prepare in advance obviously depends on what type of gun you are going to buy.

In any case, coming off as knowledgeable when you are not, is a guaranteed way to come off clueless and awkward. All you need to know is what general type of gun you want, and the fake story for why. Shotgun because you want to do whatever hunting or recreational shooting, rifle because you want to do whatever, etc.
Makes perfect sense. Looking into either a shotgun or a 45 perhaps, still doing research on what type for sure would be better for me since I will be doing it outside in a large park setting
 
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God, if only it were that easy!
You could try telling them that you want to buy a shotgun so you can try sawing off the end of it to make a sawed-off shotgun, and see what they say?

NO, I Am just kidding do not try doing that for real though. :hug:
 
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@iwanttodie000 Depending on your location, why not just buy from someone on Armslist. Private sellers don't care why you're buying, as long as you have the cash. But even buying from a store, they won't ask why you're buying a gun, Just what do you want, and how are you paying.
 
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@iwanttodie000 Depending on your location, why not just buy from someone on Armslist. Private sellers don't care why you're buying, as long as you have the cash. But even buying from a store, they won't ask why you're buying a gun, Just what do you want, and how are you paying.
Armslist was mentioned to me once, I haven't checked it out yet, but I def will. Thanks
 
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@iwanttodie000 Just be careful of scams. Only buy face to face, cash sale at the time of transfer. Don't send any cash through Paypal, Venmo, etc. Same as anything else, if the price looks too good to be true, it's probably a scam. Or it could be someone is selling a stolen gun, or one used in a crime. Don't ask questions, just meet, buy the gun, and leave. Also would be a very good idea to have a friend come along, or at least borrow a gun from someone else. I've never went to an Armslist exchange unarmed myself.
 
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@iwanttodie000 Just be careful of scams. Only buy face to face, cash sale at the time of transfer. Don't send any cash through Paypal, Venmo, etc. Same as anything else, if the price looks too good to be true, it's probably a scam. Or it could be someone is selling a stolen gun, or one used in a crime. Don't ask questions, just meet, buy the gun, and leave. Also would be a very good idea to have a friend come along, or at least borrow a gun from someone else. I've never went to an Armslist exchange unarmed myself.
I do not know for with buying guns how if guns would change things about where it is okay to simply be able to have the gun out in the open while in public, but when I have bought other stuff from people online previously, both parties we agreed to meet at the far end of an open busy large business parking lot for our safety.
 
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One trick I used when buying climbing rope was to seem worried about buying the wrong one and asking for return policies. In combination with making it seem like I had some friends that were expert climbers and that I was getting "roped into it".
 
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Know the basics..
For example don't handle the gun with the finger on the trigger, always point the gun on the ground, remove the magazine and reload the gun (just to make sure there is no bullet inside), don't immediately ask for the biggest caliber (9mm cal. will do the job), if they asking for the intentions behind the purchase -> just say Home Defense, if they ask you where you want to store the gun, say that you'll be getting an American Security (AMSEC) gun container from a friend of yours since he's switching to larger container..

I don't know how helpful those informations are since I only have a license in Czech republic and the laws there are diffrent from those in other countries
 
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We (Americans) had a whole summer of nonstop looting by radical left-wing nutjobs. Use that in your favor! Tell the salesman that you're now scared for your safety, and want to a reliable way to protect your home. Because "they loot, we shoot". Most gun store workers, let alone owners, are politically right-wing, and are in support of gun ownership. They will gladly sell you one, and teach you how to properly handle it.

"The bus" doesn't even need to be in the equation.
 
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iwanttodie000

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Know the basics..
For example don't handle the gun with the finger on the trigger, always point the gun on the ground, remove the magazine and reload the gun (just to make sure there is no bullet inside), don't immediately ask for the biggest caliber (9mm cal. will do the job), if they asking for the intentions behind the purchase -> just say Home Defense, if they ask you where you want to store the gun, say that you'll be getting an American Security (AMSEC) gun container from a friend of yours since he's switching to larger container..

I don't know how helpful those informations are since I only have a license in Czech republic and the laws there are diffrent from those in other countries
Definitely makes sense. Appreciate the tips. I am leaning towards a 45 to do it, but not set on it yet. I appreciate the caliber too, 9mm would def do the job? I am also researching whether in the mouth or above the right ear would be best too. From what I've read, in the mouth may be the way to go aimed up of course.
 
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I do not know for with buying guns how if guns would change things about where it is okay to simply be able to have the gun out in the open while in public, but when I have bought other stuff from people online previously, both parties we agreed to meet at the far end of an open busy large business parking lot for our safety.
I have conducted some Armslist transactions in some very sketchy places. One was a large apartment complex parking lot around 2 am. It was a great deal, but could have wound up costing me a lot if I got robbed of my wallet or car. I was definitely packing for that one.
 
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You could actually try getting into shooting before you decide to go, and try to enjoy shooting your gun for a little while maybe? Is that something which is possible?

Then, instead of going to the store to buy a gun for CTB. Instead, in your mind you will simply be getting a gun to try out a new hobby for a while, to see how you like it?

And then it is excellent for you if you wanted to CTB later, because you would have a rather sure-fire way to do it. Plus, you would have learned to properly shoot your gun.
 
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You could actually try getting into shooting before you decide to go, and enjoy shooting your gun for a little while maybe? Is that something which is possible?

Then, instead of going to the store to buy a gun for CTB. Instead, in your mind, you will simply be getting a gun to truly try out a new hobby for a while, and see how you like it?

And then it is excellent for you if you wanted to CTB later, because you would have a rather sure-fire way to do it. Plus, you would have learned to properly shoot your gun.
That is definitely possible. The only thing is I do have a partner that I have to not only hide the gun from, but also that I'm going to ctb so that is a challenge. I don't want them to know I have a gun at all, so the purchase and any subsequant classes/shooting would have to be secret. They don't know how bad I want to ctb and if I told them "I wanted to check out shooting as a hobby" I think they'd see thru that and know that I might off myself with it.
 
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NeverGoodEnuff

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Assuming you live in the US, as far as I know, to legally purchase a gun from an individual still requires a federally licensed firearms dealer to run a background check on the purchaser. The dealer acts as a middle man and charges a fee.

I have multiple guns of all kinds, all purchased from local dealers. The first was to CTB with but I fell in love with them and started a collection. It was easy. I just went to the store and said I wanted a handgun for personal defense, that I had very little experience and would they help me choose. A little nervousness is normal. If you tell them you are a newbie to guns, they will show you how to check it, in fact, they will do it before handing it to you. It is easy.

Personally, I would not meet anybody in a dark parking lot to buy a gun that may not even work. You don't know how to handle one safely, is it loaded, so many questions that the seller may take full advantage of your lack of knowledge which will be patently obvious. And it probably won't come with a handbook, which tells you everything you need to know. Also, the legal ramifications, if caught, would prevent any future legal purchases.

The difficulty now is to find ammunition. You can get it online if you look hard and act quickly.

Can you pass the background check?
 
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Assuming you live in the US, as far as I know, to legally purchase a gun from an individual still requires a federally licensed firearms dealer to run a background check on the purchaser. The dealer acts as a middle man and charges a fee.

I have multiple guns of all kinds, all purchased from local dealers. The first was to CTB with but I fell in love with them and started a collection. It was easy. I just went to the store and said I wanted a handgun for personal defense, that I had very little experience and would they help me choose. A little nervousness is normal. If you tell them you are a newbie to guns, they will show you how to check it, in fact, they will do it before handing it to you. It is easy.

Personally, I would not meet anybody in a dark parking lot to buy a gun that may not even work. You don't know how to handle one safely, is it loaded, so many questions that the seller may take full advantage of your lack of knowledge which will be patently obvious. And it probably won't come with a handbook, which tells you everything you need to know. Also, the legal ramifications, if caught, would prevent any future legal purchases.

The difficulty now is to find ammunition. You can get it online if you look hard and act quickly.

Can you pass the background check?
I am in the US and I know there is a lot of red tape. But I can pass the background check which I assume they will run. I'm not sure on individual state laws either as I have looked at them, but it's really hard to decipher as there is so much information. Ammunition is a concern of mine and quite honestly having no idea what ammunition is compatible and the right ammo to do the job. I am hoping to get a 45, I have read about many successful suicides with them, just not sure if there's a specific one or what ammo to look into getting for it when I get it. Still in the research stage I guess, but a background shouldn't be an issue
 
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@iwanttodie000 If it's your first gun, look for a highpoint 45. They are trash, but dirt cheap, like $100-$150 used. Ammo-wise, any good quality hollow point will be fine. I personally like Sig V Crown. It's about $1-$1.50 per round. Never once had a feed issue. This is what you would need:
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Don't get 45 Long Colt. It is for revolvers and looks like this:
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This is what a Highpoint 45 looks like:
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yeahwellso

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@iwanttodie000 Depending on your location, why not just buy from someone on Armslist. Private sellers don't care why you're buying, as long as you have the cash. But even buying from a store, they won't ask why you're buying a gun, Just what do you want, and how are you paying.
Do they not care because there's no enforcement, or because they only deal in untraceable guns anyway? Presumably, the very existence of something like Armslist is a strong indication that little or no enforcement is done, since it must be easy for an enforcement agency to round up a bunch of gunrunners just by replying to ads.
 
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That is definitely possible. The only thing is I do have a partner that I have to not only hide the gun from, but also that I'm going to ctb so that is a challenge. I don't want them to know I have a gun at all, so the purchase and any subsequant classes/shooting would have to be secret. They don't know how bad I want to ctb and if I told them "I wanted to check out shooting as a hobby" I think they'd see thru that and know that I might off myself with it.

That certainly does complicate things. Do children or teens ever come in the house? If so, that means securing it under lock, not just hiding it.

I have posted on here before that buying that first gun saved my life! It has become a fun hobby. So what Spitfire says. Also, owning a gun instills me with a sense of responsibility. Now, when the impulsive urge to CTB comes upon me, I know that using that gun is a "no going back" decision. There will be no changing my mind and calling 911 for help once I pull that trigger. Count on an investigation with yellow do not cross police line tape around my house and the cops will confiscate all my guns and stuff and who knows what else. My heir will probably never get them! They are my most prized possessions now.

I don't know what to say about keeping this secret.

Edit to add: As for what gun to get, that is a personal choice for everybody. It needs to fit your hand. A revolver is the choice for people who have trouble pulling back the slide on a semi automatic. Also, your choices will be very limited to what a dealer has in stock, which now isn't much.
 
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@iwanttodie000 If it's your first gun, look for a highpoint 45. They are trash, but dirt cheap, like $100-$150 used. Ammo-wise, any good quality hollow point will be fine. I personally like Sig V Crown. It's about $1-$1.50 per round. Never once had a feed issue. This is what you would need:
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Don't get 45 Long Colt. It is for revolvers and looks like this:
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This is what a Highpoint 45 looks like:
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Thank you so much! This helps out a lot being able to visually see. Looks relatively easy to handle, the more I look into it, the more I think I would probably eat it instead of the side of the head, but still researching that. For someone who knows shit about guns and is intent on using one to cbt, this helps out a lot!
That certainly does complicate things. Do children or teens ever come in the house? If so, that means securing it under lock, not just hiding it.

I have posted on here before that buying that first gun saved my life! It has become a fun hobby. So what Spitfire says. Also, owning a gun instills me with a sense of responsibility. Now, when the impulsive urge to CTB comes upon me, I know that using that gun is a "no going back" decision. There will be no changing my mind and calling 911 for help once I pull that trigger. Count on an investigation with yellow do not cross police line tape around my house and the cops will confiscate all my guns and stuff and who knows what else. My heir will probably never get them! They are my most prized possessions now.

I don't know what to say about keeping this secret.
no children or teens, we have a small apt tho which will make it challenging to hide and hard to keep the secret, but I'll have to figure it out. I also want to use the gun because it's a no going back decision, despite my inexperience with them, it's what I've thought about for most of my life. Plus wiht my anxiety and depression, it's symbolic to blow my fuckin brains around, I don't know, an odd satisfaction since it's caused me so much grief. Hopefully a 45 with some hollow points will acheive that
 
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@iwanttodie000 I do hope you reconsider your decision to ctb. I'm not advocating that. But if that's your choice, at least the 45 is about the best handgun you can get to kill and not maim. Least chance of winding up a vegetable or severely fucked up. And yes, all research shows that in the mouth, slightly upward angle is the most successful.

After you purchase the gun, make sure to take a few trips to the range, get a feel for the trigger, get used to the violence of shooting a gun, especially a 45. It's loud, it will make you jump at first. Eventually, you will be comfortable enough to stand right next to someone who is shooting and have a conversation. Also, you will be able to concentrate and shoot with people shooting their guns to the left and right of you.

Like others have said, if you postpone your trip, you may find shooting an enjoyable hobby. You will make great progress at first. There's nothing like hitting a headshot with a handgun at 20+ yards!

You can always pm me if you have specific questions.
 
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Thank you so much! This helps out a lot being able to visually see. Looks relatively easy to handle, the more I look into it, the more I think I would probably eat it instead of the side of the head, but still researching that. For someone who knows shit about guns and is intent on using one to cbt, this helps out a lot!

no children or teens, we have a small apt tho which will make it challenging to hide and hard to keep the secret, but I'll have to figure it out. I also want to use the gun because it's a no going back decision, despite my inexperience with them, it's what I've thought about for most of my life. Plus wiht my anxiety and depression, it's symbolic to blow my fuckin brains around, I don't know, an odd satisfaction since it's caused me so much grief. Hopefully a 45 with some hollow points will acheive that
Hollow points also have the advantage of less chance going through you, the wall, and a neighbor.

I have a Sig Sauer .45, a police type pistol. Love it!! Ammo for the semi auto .45's is labeled ACP (Auto Colt Pistol) or "Auto". Avoid Taurus. They are trash. The last thing you need is a cheap POS that may jam or misfire.
 
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iwanttodie000

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Hollow points also have the advantage of less chance going through you, the wall, and a neighbor.

I have a Sig Sauer .45, a police type pistol. Love it!! Ammo for the semi auto .45's is labeled ACP (Auto Colt Pistol) or "Auto". Avoid Taurus. They are trash. The last thing you need is a cheap POS that may jam or misfire.
Definitely. I don't want anything to jam or misfire, this is a one time deal for me and it has to work. I plan on doing it outside
 

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