I feel extremely guilty for wanting and again trying to CTB when I have people that care about and love me. A week ago I accidentally overdosed on fentanyl and my boyfriend used narcan/ revived me and part of me wishes he didn't. Not that I'm not thankful to be alive but now I realize how easy it actually is to OD on fent. I guess what I'm trying to say is I don't want to put him through dealing with my death again but I also want to die and I know he'll be better off in the long run without me.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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It sounds like a difficult situation to be in and it must be hard to deal with. The way that I see it grief and loss are inevitable in a life like this, there is no escaping it. As long as life exists there will be suffering.
I wish you the best.
I wish you the best.
