Guilt

[a_new_man]

I have a boyfriend and im really happy with him but i still want to ctb really badly and he knows it, i want him to be ready when it happens i know nothing can prepare him for that but i feel like im leading him on if i dont say. Lately he has been planning things for the future like moving in together as soon as we can afford that but i dont plan on saving up money since i dont have any plans to spend on anything in the future. Im worried about him cause he clearly doesnt think im gonna do it anytime soon but i want to this year hopefully, does anyone else here feel guilty when someone they care about talks about the future? I really feel ready to go as soon as ive done everything i wanna do in my life i wish i didnt have the guilt though, hes the only person that really listens to me and he doesnt deserve this