Jon Arbuckle
Aspiring Corpse
- Jul 23, 2024
- 88
One of the main reasons I want to CTB is guilt. I feel super miserable about a lot of things, especially things I've done to people and my friends
I still feel super miserable about what I did to my friend, I put so much pressure on them and I basically wrote them a fucking suicide note of course they didn't want to talk to me anymore. I so badly want to apologize and make things right but it's been a month now and I know it's just going to open old wounds, there's no way it could possibly end well.
I've been back on my old medication and I can literally feel it dampening my emotions, my mood is more "stable" but I don't want it to be. I want to feel sad, I want to feel guilty, it's the least I deserve for being such an awful person and hurting my friend.
I still feel super miserable about what I did to my friend, I put so much pressure on them and I basically wrote them a fucking suicide note of course they didn't want to talk to me anymore. I so badly want to apologize and make things right but it's been a month now and I know it's just going to open old wounds, there's no way it could possibly end well.
I've been back on my old medication and I can literally feel it dampening my emotions, my mood is more "stable" but I don't want it to be. I want to feel sad, I want to feel guilty, it's the least I deserve for being such an awful person and hurting my friend.