Venting Gross fantasies

[squillykilly]

I don't even know what to caption this. I have had this habit, this hobby, my whole life. Day dreaming of terrible things happening to me, being hurt in various ways by people and so on. I don't think I can say what these thoughts are without feeling shame and embarrassment, but they are bad.
Maybe I just want some real problems. Maybe I just want someone to see what I've been through in these hypotheticals and actually care. I feel like a sick freak dude...

 

[NocturnalDistortion]

Not to act like a psychologist here, but maybe you feel some emotional need/support is not being met? Like you feel that the lack of recognition for the suffering you have is not worth the suffering you are actually experiencing because it's not in a form that other people can outwardly recognize like a traumatic event, injury, illness etc.

 

[BillyBob]

You are not sick at all.
I use to get these all the time and the dreams/nightmares were even worse like people constantly stabbing be to death or torturing me, and these dreams would just repeat constantly with small variations in them. Other dreams were being dismembered slowly, or chased down by a big mob until I was forced to jump off a building or kill myself then and there.

 

[squillykilly]

Not to act like a psychologist here, but maybe you feel some emotional need/support is not being met? Like you feel that the lack of recognition for the suffering you have is not worth the suffering you are actually experiencing because it's not in a form that other people can outwardly recognize like a traumatic event, injury, illness etc.

It's definitely something like that, like I feel like I don't deserve to suffer like this if I haven't been hurt brutally..