Goodbye 💜

[Kurai]

Goodbye everyone currently 2am and can't sleep most likely cause I'm nervous and didn't take sleep med. In less than 24 hours I will be CTBing with SN. I don't really have a story it's just my life is hell, I've lost everything, it's unbearable to continue living with this mental anguish. It's my time to go, a drink of this and I will be free. Also, I want to thank this site it's been so helpful. I wish everyone on here will find eternal peace.

my SN regime:
17 hour fast
1:00pm- take 1mg lorazepam (to help calm me throughout the day)
4:00pm- No liquids
(no liquids 2 hours before SN only small sips for the pills)
5:00pm- Take 1000mg ibruprofen
5:20pm- Take 30mg meto (AE)
*wait 45 mins
5:45pm- *prepare 3 servings of 25g SN in 50ml water(I have prepared extra in case I vomit)
*crush benzos into separate cup w/ little water
5:55pm- Take 6mg crushed lorazepam (benzo)
6:05pm- Drink one glass SN
6:05pm- take chocolate confection
*relax and lay right side w/ bucket near

 

[Theresnoescape]

Good luck, I hope you find peace.

 

[athiestjoe]

Wishing you peace & serenity. Safe travels.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered so much in this cruel existence, I hope you find the peace you search for, best wishes.

 

[maynoname]

I recognize myself in your words. I hope you find peace.

 

[Unknown21]

May you find peace. Have a peaceful, pain-free journey. Farewell.

 

[maniac116]

I'm sorry that your life has brought you to this point.
I hope your transition is smooth & painless and that in the end you find a place of peace & unconditional love

 

[Plato'sCaveDweller]

I wish you luck, and hope you find that eternal peace too.

 

[juliano2001]

Goodbye everyone currently 2am and can't sleep most likely cause I'm nervous and didn't take sleep med. In less than 24 hours I will be CTBing with SN. I don't really have a story it's just my life is hell, I've lost everything, it's unbearable to continue living with this mental anguish. It's my time to go, a drink of this and I will be free. Also, I want to thank this site it's been so helpful. I wish everyone on here will find eternal peace.

my SN regime:
17 hour fast
1:00pm- take 1mg lorazepam (to help calm me throughout the day)
4:00pm- No liquids
(no liquids 2 hours before SN only small sips for the pills)
5:00pm- Take 1000mg ibruprofen
5:20pm- Take 30mg meto (AE)
*wait 45 mins
5:45pm- *prepare 3 servings of 25g SN in 50ml water(I have prepared extra in case I vomit)
*crush benzos into separate cup w/ little water
5:55pm- Take 6mg crushed lorazepam (benzo)
6:05pm- Drink one glass SN
6:05pm- take chocolate confection
*relax and lay right side w/ bucket near

I hope you are at peace. See you soon I hope.

 

[Kurai]

Update: made it to the hotel finally…it's getting real still nervous

 

[Davey40210]

All the best OP . If you change your mind then that is totally fine. If not, I hope you have a peaceful transition.

 

[nir]

In honour of 2ndme, gonna leave this here just in case. If you change your mind after taking SN, it is not too late, but you need to act fast. Call emergency services in your area, clearly state your location, and tell them you have ingested sodium nitrite and will need to be treated with intravenous methylene blue.
There is no shame in changing your mind, and we will accept you back with open arms.

That being said, regardless of what happens, I hope you find the peace you are looking for. If you go through with the SN, I hope it is a peaceful passing.

 

[NoHalfMeasures]

I wish the best for you, but as davey40210 said, its okay if you change your mind. We're here for you regardless of the plan. But I do I wish you a peaceful passing.

 

[Kurai]

the benzo and the music is calming me down just made my death bed in the showers so many pillows ^^ and a blanket for comfort

 

[nir]

the benzo and the music is calming me down just made my death bed in the showers so many pillows ^^ and a blanket for comfort

What time is it where you're at?

 

[Kurai]

It's 2:33pm right now just relaxing a bit before sn regime

 

[sevennn]

sending love sorry life has treated you unkindly.

 

[Gone soon]

Best wishes for your journey

 

[TenThousandTrees]

Wishing you the best, no shame in backing out if you decide it's not the right time after all. Happy you have a comfortable setup and the benzos are helping a bit. Sending you lots of love

 

[blessforus]

bless for you to find peace

 

[Kurai]

Thank you everyone for all the kind goodbyes and words, it makes me feel less alone

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Sending you so many hugs. I'm sorry life has to be like this. Wishing you peace and relief, we are here for you no matter what<3

 

[sevennn]

Thank you everyone for all the kind goodbyes and words, it makes me feel less alone

of course. no one should be alone in this moment. it's too bad we have to do it alone.

 

[divinemistress36]

Peace on your journey <3

 

[maniac116]

Thank you everyone for all the kind goodbyes and words, it makes me feel less alone

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Please update us, if you want to. <3 <3 <3

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

I'll miss seeing your posts Goodluck, and I hope you find peace

 

[NoHalfMeasures]

Wishing you luck. I will try to stick around as much as I can. Just remember, you are not alone!

 

[snuffbun]

Good luck and goodbye, I hope whatever is next is easier on you.

 

[AbsentMindedHuman]

im sorry it has come to this. I hope you can find some comfort in this time. stay strong. you deserved better <3