goodbye, will be going on monday

[Majin K.]

I have a question. Why dont the people prefer this method if this method is having such a high lethality and painless.Do u have any idea

Simple, because if the person rescuing you isn't wearing a gas mask he'll probably die from a single breath. You'll need to post warning signs on your car. Also it's well hidden here and not even mentioned in the resources thread.

 

[nbn]

Simple, because if the person rescuing you isn't wearing a gas mask he'll probably die from a single breath. You'll need to post warning signs on your car. Also it's well hidden here and not even mentioned in the resources thread.

Even then, the frequency of this cases is very rare. After the japanese suicide fad, there were very few cases. I think there should be some reason.

 

[Majin K.]

I think exit bag became the popular method after that. If I could order things without drawing suspicion H2S would be my to go to method as well. Like all you have to do is mix an appropriate acid source with an appropriate sulfur source.

 

[voyager]

Good luck, pasta. May you escape your pursuers and troubles. Safe travels.

 

[Majin K.]

To me H2S sounds like the ultimate method. It's so easy to make and you'll die with only 1-2 breaths. It would also be good to get a gas mask. Wait 6 minutes and then just pull it off. Game over.

 

[nbn]

To me H2S sounds like the ultimate method. It's so easy to make and you'll die with only 1-2 breaths. It would also be good to get a gas mask. Wait 6 minutes and then just pull it off. Game over.

Even for me this method look interesting.just one breath and nothing can go wrong.No need to worry about the rope strength, vomiting,or being saved after jumping from a building.However, i will do more research before i change my long held method (hanging)

 

[pastamakesufasta]

another update. a friend informed the police, i talked my self out of hit but agreed on going to a psych ward next week, so i tried to ctb today. im sorry, i just couldn't. my phone died and with no light at 4am in a garden shed thats sealed airtight its hard to mix two chemicals without seeing, and i thought about it. my body has the unresistable craving/desire for attention, someone that cares for me, and not only when i'm about to die. i'm going to my brothers right now, which is about 300miles away (public transport in germany -> 4 hours ish) I didnt mix any chemicals whatsoever, just spilled a tiny bit of acid into the lime sulfur (btw really smells like a violently wet fart) and it only took 1 minute for me to feel severe eye irritation (remember i only spilled about 10ml) and my sense of smell started to fade away, thats when my phone died as i was about to pour the rest. i could be dead & not worry about these cravings for someone that cares anymore, but they are so strong that i chose to not die and go after them. i'll be going to a psych ward and give it another try.. with getting well. thank everybody here. @admins no need to ban my account, i'll be looking arround in the recovery thread section. thank everyone!

 

[Lostandfound7]

another update. a friend informed the police, i talked my self out of hit but agreed on going to a psych ward next week, so i tried to ctb today. im sorry, i just couldn't. my phone died and with no light at 4am in a garden shed thats sealed airtight its hard to mix two chemicals without seeing, and i thought about it. my body has the unresistable craving/desire for attention, someone that cares for me, and not only when i'm about to die. i'm going to my brothers right now, which is about 300miles away (public transport in germany -> 4 hours ish) I didnt mix any chemicals whatsoever, just spilled a tiny bit of acid into the lime sulfur (btw really smells like a violently wet fart) and it only took 1 minute for me to feel severe eye irritation (remember i only spilled about 10ml) and my sense of smell started to fade away, thats when my phone died as i was about to pour the rest. i could be dead & not worry about these cravings for someone that cares anymore, but they are so strong that i chose to not die and go after them. i'll be going to a psych ward and give it another try.. with getting well. thank everybody here. @admins no need to ban my account, i'll be looking arround in the recovery thread section. thank everyone!

So happy to hear that Love! Everyone loves n desires to b loved, ur no different..while I know y I joined this site n what my end result could possibly b, it just breaks my heart to see anyone here go..selfish, I know but idgad..u guys have become like fam to me n have strengthened me

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I hope your life gets better and you're happy.

 

[voyager]

Good on you, follow your heart. I hope you make it and find happiness. Best of luck!

 

[Majin K.]

another update. a friend informed the police, i talked my self out of hit but agreed on going to a psych ward next week, so i tried to ctb today. im sorry, i just couldn't. my phone died and with no light at 4am in a garden shed thats sealed airtight its hard to mix two chemicals without seeing, and i thought about it. my body has the unresistable craving/desire for attention, someone that cares for me, and not only when i'm about to die. i'm going to my brothers right now, which is about 300miles away (public transport in germany -> 4 hours ish) I didnt mix any chemicals whatsoever, just spilled a tiny bit of acid into the lime sulfur (btw really smells like a violently wet fart) and it only took 1 minute for me to feel severe eye irritation (remember i only spilled about 10ml) and my sense of smell started to fade away, thats when my phone died as i was about to pour the rest. i could be dead & not worry about these cravings for someone that cares anymore, but they are so strong that i chose to not die and go after them. i'll be going to a psych ward and give it another try.. with getting well. thank everybody here. @admins no need to ban my account, i'll be looking arround in the recovery thread section. thank everyone!

Going to play devil's advocate here. Should you ever change your mind about staying alive, then I think that it's important that you buy a gas mask for the H2S method. The moments until a deadly concentration of H2S is created could be pure hell. Of course I hope that you get better.

 

[any%]

Happy for you that give life another shot! Thanks to you and your information I bought myself the acid and the lime sulfur, 32oz each. These days my moods are like a rollercoaster and so is my desire to stay alive/end my life. I just hope by having the two chemicals readily available to me (in between my clothes in my cupboard) I might be able to finally off myself impulsively when it gets too bad, as my previous (obviously failed) attempt also was an impulsive idea that took form within 20 minutes. Only this time it is a point-of-no-return method!
It drives me crazy to want to stay alive and have plans for my life on one day and then the very next day all I can think of is to be dead, to the point whereI I regularly ride with my bike to that traintrack place outside town, but no matter how bad I feel, I cannot do it, cause of the train driver. Then again how can I care more about a train driver I do not know, than about my mother, who I know will be heart broken for the rest of her life. I dont even understand myself. Sorry for completely drifting apart...
I really hope you can find your peace and stay alive at the same time! My heart goes out for you, be strong!

 

[saintives]

Taraji is that you??? Lol...

On a more serious note every post of yours is an empty platitude. You have no idea about each of these people lives so your posts are empty.

In fact, many of us are here because noone gives a f* about us and this is the only place where people can relate. If I had a thread and you wrote this on mine you would infuriate me because everything you say would mean nothing to me...

If you want to "help" offer to talk with people. But telling them there are people who love them and care when you know nothing about their lives or their experiences can be very condescending. Most "rational" people dont arrive at these decisions overnight. They are typically experiencing years of torment.

EDIT: Stick to the recovery thread if you have an agenda.

agree with this post, honest as it is. no one cares about us or other people who have unlucky circumstances (for some reason until youre dead, sometimes not) and i feel like unless pro life people are willing to go fund me, make or volunteer at social programs etc. it may just be an empty attempt at keeping them alive with no actual ideas for help...

 

[Ghost2211]

Hope life gets better for you.

 

[pastamakesufasta]

Update no.2: Atill in the psych ward, not actively planning on ctb but still looking at it as an option. weird mixed emotions right now, weird medication, but overall its quite decent. totally off topic but i guess i'll still post because it really makes me feel better and helps a lot. I got a new Frame for my road bike a few days ago and painted it

 

[Soul]

The bike looks mighty fine — good job!

 

[Indieblue]

Even then, the frequency of this cases is very rare. After the japanese suicide fad, there were very few cases. I think there should be some reason.

I think it is also because it is difficult doing in home. Or in hotel. You have to go out of your comfort zone and do it outside.

My Line Sulfur will arrive tomorrow, i'll try to have some fun this weekend, on Monday i will ctb with hydrogen sulfide in a small garden shed we own which nobody used for 7 years. i will still post various warning signs. thank tou to everybody on this forum, i think i will ban my account myself, if you dont hear from me after tuesday evening (might divert one day) please have a mod ban my account

Hope you have peaceful journey

 

[Majin K.]

Hope you have peaceful journey

You replied to a really old post. Op changed his mind after mixing together the chemicals. He had doubts in his heart. So now he's in psych ward.

 

[Indieblue]

You replied to a really old post. Op changed his mind after mixing together the chemicals. He had doubts in his heart. So now he's in psych ward.

Ohhh...hope he is doing okay

 

[any%]

@pastamakesufasta <3 <3 I am also still around & road cycling is one of my "medications", feels like taking drugs for me, which I stopped taking. But I dont have a proper racing bike unfortunately but I know the feeling of having a new bike or bike part, i hope from the bottom of my heart that you can enjoy your bike and the mixed emotions get at least easier to endure!!

PS: That does not look like a shimano groupset, is that a SRAM groupset? You did a good paint job, the"Mallorca" thing had me laughing out loud :) Ty!

 

[Jumper Geo]

You replied to a really old post. Op changed his mind after mixing together the chemicals. He had doubts in his heart. So now he's in psych ward.

Yes decided his last smell couldn't be that of a wet fart so it saved him in the end, interesting method though.

My Line Sulfur will arrive tomorrow, i'll try to have some fun this weekend, on Monday i will ctb with hydrogen sulfide in a small garden shed we own which nobody used for 7 years. i will still post various warning signs. thank tou to everybody on this forum, i think i will ban my account myself, if you dont hear from me after tuesday evening (might divert one day) please have a mod ban my account

Well done giving life another chance hope everything goes well for you.

 

[pastamakesufasta]

@pastamakesufasta <3 <3 I am also still around & road cycling is one of my "medications", feels like taking drugs for me, which I stopped taking. But I dont have a proper racing bike unfortunately but I know the feeling of having a new bike or bike part, i hope from the bottom of my heart that you can enjoy your bike and the mixed emotions get at least easier to endure!!

PS: That does not look like a shimano groupset, is that a SRAM groupset? You did a good paint job, the"Mallorca" thing had me laughing out loud :) Ty!

Its a Sensah Empire Groupy, basically a sram Red copy for about 190$. Shifts really nice and weighs 40g less than Ultegra Di2

 

[any%]

Its a Sensah Empire Groupy, basically a sram Red copy for about 190$. Shifts really nice and weighs 40g less than Ultegra Di2

Sounds like a sweet deal, have fun with that. May the gears be with you!

 

[pastamakesufasta]

Sounds like a sweet deal, have fun with that. May the gears be with you!

Thanks. Thinking about getting some Hed Jet 6/9's. Just love the cool retro look.

 

[pastamakesufasta]

And here i am again, after 5 Weeks in a psych ward. Now taking Seroquel, but still not feeling better besides the huge plus that i can actually sleep now. Still wanna ctb tho