
rayofsunshine
Member
- Jul 1, 2020
- 18
hi yall!! so i mainly have just lurked on here and haven't havent posted much, and i was really debating making a goodbye thread. but now that the time is almost here (i'm planning to take the sn in 30 min) i'm alot more lonely that i thought i'd feel and would love some people to talk to to pass the time. i feel like it'd calm my nerves a bit. other than being a tad nervious i feel really good. i'm excited to not exist anymore. i've made all my notes, packed all my shit (to make it easier for my fam) and scheduled emails to both the police and my apartment management. hopefully all goes according to plan. i couldnt get ahold of meto, but i have taken the 300mg of seroquel that was suggested for over a month now, so hopefully that does the trick. took Ibuprofen about an hour ago and just took the milk of magnesia (double dose). oh, and a good amount of xanax :) if you're curious on how much SN i will be taking it will be 20g since i am small (110 lb) i'll be wiping my phone right before i take it but i'd love to talk to some of you in the thread before i go. idk how the banning works, but it'd be cool if i could postpone the banning for like 2 weeks in case its unsuccessful so i can come back and update you guys. the the F26 or whatever tf the name of the organization is thats trying to get this site shut down, please don't screenshot this and post it on your platforms. it's really disrespectful. and if my parents see this, please don't try to take this site down like some parents *cough cough* i am happy i found this site, my last attempt i tried to OD on sleeping pills and could have been really fucked up or disabled after, so i'm happy i was able to find a better method so i don't screw my self for the rest of my life. also, please don't ask me if i'm sure of my decision or try to talk me down, i apprieicate it but i also don't want to hear it hehe