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Stubbe

Stubbe

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Sep 11, 2020
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Hey, so it's just about my time.

Most of you here probably don't know me as I haven't been very active on the forums, and instead opted to use discord and the likes.

My method is SN, and I'm doing the 48 hour regimen. I've been taking meto since yesterday and will end up fasting for close to 24 hours (though that may be overkill).


My time will arrive at 2400 GMT+1

Best of luck to all you guys

Maybe someone will be posting logs, but I'm not sure

Sincerely
xander
 
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AJ95

AJ95

24/7 sylvia plath
Sep 3, 2020
478
Going to miss you :heart:

Glad I'll be able to support you over discord <3
 
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Lilacmoon

Lilacmoon

Beautiful moon, take me away.
Sep 23, 2020
1,308
Xander who will be my favorite baldie now :(
and our among us gaaames
aaaaaa
Farewell, good luck, swift and peaceful journey, you won't be forgotten no matter how much you want to be!
 
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degeneratewaste

degeneratewaste

dressed for the grave.
Aug 24, 2020
264
you and your emo ass music will be missed, xander.

thank you for keeping me company. I hope this is all peaceful for you and I'm glad some of us can keep you company on call in your final hours. big hugs.
 
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MiseryLovesMyCompany

MiseryLovesMyCompany

Arcanist
Oct 8, 2020
482
It was a pleasure to know you. I won't lie, I'm sad to see you go, but happy that you'll finally be free. It was nice to play among us together and talk daily. :hug:
I hope you'll find peace. I will be here to support you in your final moments, but you know that already. :hug:
 
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Deleted member 17949

Visionary
May 9, 2020
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I am going to miss you bro
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Illuminated
Feb 13, 2020
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My little candle burns for you this night Xander. I hope the light will guide you to love and peace :hug:
 
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Alec

Alec

Wizard
Apr 22, 2019
680
I'm going to miss you, I really will, but like I said before we gotta do what's best for us. I've already said how important you are to me and how I wish you painless passing in private messages, not gonna be boring and repeat myself. Just want you to know, I love you. I'm gonna be with you. Stay awesome! ❤️❤️❤️
 
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AwokenToReality

AwokenToReality

Just wanna close my eyes, and feel alright
May 27, 2020
90
Wishing you the best Xander and hope you can find the peace you're looking for. :heart:
 
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Zenpurrz

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Oct 31, 2020
19
May your journey be painless and peaceful...
 
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Silenos

Silenos

Ṿ̸̄Ọ̶͂Ỉ̶͉D̴̞͝ ̴̲̐A̷̾͜W̷̪͒Ā̵̯I̵͍̅T̵̛͔S̷̗͛
Jul 25, 2020
1,057
You my babe. We should've fucked honestly, and I'm gonna miss you.

Don't forget to haunt me! :heart:
 
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xLosthopex

xLosthopex

Tell my dogs I love them
May 29, 2020
1,133
Sorry to see you go, hope you find peace:heart:
 
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141592653

141592653

TW She/Her
Aug 9, 2020
119
I give you one happy spoon so that you die at peace :hug:
 
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Deleted member 14177

not home
Jan 20, 2020
345
Wishing you much peace, friend
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,015
Safe and swift travels.
 
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yetme

yetme

Arcanist
Oct 20, 2019
486
Hey, so it's just about my time.

Most of you here probably don't know me as I haven't been very active on the forums, and instead opted to use discord and the likes.

My method is SN, and I'm doing the 48 hour regimen. I've been taking meto since yesterday and will end up fasting for close to 24 hours (though that may be overkill).


My time will arrive at 2400 GMT+1

Best of luck to all you guys

Maybe someone will be posting logs, but I'm not sure

Sincerely
xander

Good bye! I don't know what to say... I wish we all had a better chance in this life..
 
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BLUE1970

BLUE1970

Experienced
Nov 3, 2020
213
I hope you have a swift and painless voyage Xander.
 
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Stubbe

Stubbe

Member
Sep 11, 2020
34
Drank the SN
 
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dropdeadfred

Boarding the bus to Everlasting Dreamland ♡
Oct 19, 2020
255
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x~Sophia~x

Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
Sep 10, 2020
1,360
Wishing you a painless and peaceful journey.
 
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veryrandomusernameqa

Member
Oct 11, 2020
7
Hey, so it's just about my time.

Most of you here probably don't know me as I haven't been very active on the forums, and instead opted to use discord and the likes.

My method is SN, and I'm doing the 48 hour regimen. I've been taking meto since yesterday and will end up fasting for close to 24 hours (though that may be overkill).


My time will arrive at 2400 GMT+1

Best of luck to all you guys

Maybe someone will be posting logs, but I'm not sure

Sincerely
xander
One of the only people I knew here... you will be missed, but enjoy your freedom. Safe travels ❤
 
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speck

speck

Student
May 5, 2020
178
wishing you a peaceful journey.
 
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Niirvana

Niirvana

♥Soon♥
Sep 18, 2020
436
hey how r u feeling man? hope u have a peaceful trip
 
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StateOfMind

StateOfMind

Liberty or Death
Apr 30, 2020
1,195
Hope it works out for you and hope to see you on the other side stranger.
 
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Dizzy_Dreams

Dizzy_Dreams

I’m never alone, I’m alone all the time.
Jun 25, 2020
297
Could anyone on here that's watching his live stream post time stamps? I hope he finds peace..
 
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MiseryLovesMyCompany

MiseryLovesMyCompany

Arcanist
Oct 8, 2020
482
23:55 mixing SN (25g/50ml weight: 90kg; 2 glasses) Position is a comfy chair
23:57 drank first glass in a second; taste was salty but remained calm
23:58 lit up a cigarette
23:59 feels it in throat, still able to walk (went to the sink to rinse and came back)
00:00 threw up, seems a bit in distress, threw up multiple times
Prince offers to sing, he's able to respond, Prince sings a nice lullaby
00:01 seems to be in distress, constant vomiting
00:02 says "sick", went to grab a cloth, returned abruptly with cloth, vomiting again
00:03 "my hands are tingling"
00:04 almost vomited but was able to hold it back, "my heart is beating fast"
Can communicate but obviously seems sick
00:05 "it's tingling now" "uncomfortable but doesn't hurt"
00:06 "I'm very restless"
00:07 starts shaking a bit, not able to communicate but can move his hands and head
00:08 convulsing (a bit violently for a few seconds), saliva/vomit shot out of his mouth, headphone fell off but was able to put it back to his ears - his last confirmed voluntary movement
00:09 light shaking, tries to move head
00:10 makes strange sounds but not able to speak
00:11 a few heavy convulsions but still in position, headphone on, saliva shot out again
00:11 makes sounds again, seems like he tries to speak but can't
00:12 not much movement, occasionally straightens up then falls back to chair
00:13 sounds continue
00:14 possibly unconscious (it could have happened sooner than this time)
00:15 visibly more blue now and pale
00:16 snorts continuously, might be the so called "death rattle"
00:17-20 situation is the same as above
00:19 one straightening up, and one louder sound, like a grasp for air
00:21 sounds are becoming less frequent, there are some random involuntary movements but not much (mostly mouth opening)
00:22 almost ceased movements
00:24 little sound and movement
00:25 getting near; still in the chair, mouth and eyes are open, he's obviously not there
00:26 no more sounds, sometimes moves a little bit
00:28 no more movements

conclusion: hard to watch someone die but seems relatively peaceful, just as expected; threw up a lot at the beginning, at the time of the convulsions he did not seem to realize what was happening, he did not drink the second glass
 
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AJ95

AJ95

24/7 sylvia plath
Sep 3, 2020
478
A few of us were watching him as he went, he seems to have passed away now. He hasn't breathed for a while.
 
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Lilacmoon

Lilacmoon

Beautiful moon, take me away.
Sep 23, 2020
1,308
Goodbye, man. I hope this was the ending he wanted.
 
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