Goodbye thread. Been on here since 2018 and finally ending it.

[SexyIncél]

I feel embarrassed and ashamed to write a ctb note with the reasons. I might leave it and not bother with one.

Regardless what you do, your story's important, and you're as valuable as everyone else.

 

[StarlightDreamer]

I'm sorry it's come to this. I pray we'll meet again, in a better life.

 

[Finding Sirius]

I wish you a peaceful journey.

 

[theboy]

I send you lots of hugs. I hope you find peace whatever your decision

 

[hockeymum9999]

I am happy for you that you will be in a better place, one without pain and sorrow. Safe travels.

 

[I want to end it]

Yes. You've suffered enough.

I guess I have you're right.


question to everyone: can I mix a sweetener with N? A sugar free sweetener with zero calories. Or does this alter the N's potency?

 

[It’sFkgUnbearable]

I wish you forever peace and safe travels

 

[LeavingEarly]

Where did you get N? How long have you had it?

 

[death becomes her]

I wish you the most peaceful of travels

 

[Everlong]

I don't know what's in the Evermore, but I hope it's like waking up in a warm blanket on a cold Sunday morning for you.
Perhaps we'll meet in a few months.
@I want it to end

I don't know what's in the Evermore, but I hope it's like waking up in a warm blanket on a cold Sunday morning for you.
Perhaps we'll meet in a few months.
@I want it to end

@I want to end it
I fuck everything up

 

[FrozenMango]

Sending hugs

 

[Everlong]

Dear fellow traveler. May the other side be just as you wish.

 

[Marioomr]

Hey man, if you're only going to do it because of the money, and you don't really have a desire to commit suicide I can help you with some money if you want you can talk to me on Instagram that's my name (mario.omr33)

 

[brokensea]

So sorry life has pushed you into a corner like this and you feel there's no way out. What you're dealing with is so tough and life can be so brutal. Just be sure to take time if you need it. There is no rush.

 

[NeverEndingPain]

Hey man, if you're only going to do it because of the money, and you don't really have a desire to commit suicide I can help you with some money if you want you can talk to me on Instagram that's my name (mario.omr33)

This is so amazing of you. I wish I had someone to help me that way. I also wish I had money to help others.

 

[Marioomr]

This is so amazing of you. I wish I had someone to help me that way. I also wish I had money to help others.

I have some money and I have a plan to commit suicide in a few days, I won't take the money with me while I'm dead lol

 

[I want to end it]

Need a definite answer to this before I do it: will adding a sweetener to the N change its potency or chemical makeup to make it not effective?

 

[NeverEndingPain]

I have some money and I have a plan to commit suicide in a few days, I won't take the money with me while I'm dead lol

I've looked at your Instagram. Can I ask why you want to CTB? You are so young and handsome

 

[thebunny]

i hope you'll have a peaceful journey ahead. i wish you all the best. rest easy and see you on the other side

 

[Marioomr]

I've looked at your Instagram. Can I ask why you want to CTB? You are so young and handsome

I'm tired of life, man, sex and love. It wasn't my decision to be born, but leaving was a choice and a decision

 

[Cronetappingout]

Hugs

 

[It'sMyLife]

I cannot answer your question about any chemical reactions between the two but I have read that splenda kills ants and that it was discovered in the process of trying to invent a new ant poison. I do not know if this is true or if it's just more weblore. There seem to be ample websites that discuss this though. If it is true just think about the fact that the fda approved it for human use. It's a chemical made in a factory and would never have occurred naturally. So my guess is ,sugar not being some toxic chemical like artificial sweeteners are ,would be far less likely to react. And why would it matter at this point anyway if you had some sugar?! I'm also thinking you might look up some of the neurological effects of sucralose if you have any interest. I am assuming this is the one you use. Saccharine is tame by comparison but is also a chemical and not a sugar. They really don't care what they do to us at this point. Just look at the "vaccines" they approved but that's another topic I'm not going to argue about here

 

[hey.howare.u]

Hope you find peace

 

[Hollowillow]

It feels a bit surreal that it has come to this, but I am finally going to be ctbing. I have been on here since 2018. The site was different back then. It was newly formed, I joined only 1 month after it started. I prepared my method and I was ready to do it in September and again in October but I didn't. Life was looking better in 2019. However since the beginning of 2020, it's been getting progressively worse for me and now circumstances have forced me to do it. If I don't do it this month, I will be in very deep problems.

My method is N and I will be going tomorrow. It still doesn't feel normal that I will be ending my life but like I say, circumstances have forced me to.

Thank you for reading. I will update when I do it. I will also say what N smells and tastes like. But I can't say more than that after I take it, because I must switch off my computer before the N takes effect.

I'm sorry that life has been unkind to you & pro lifers are nowhere to give real help. I'm glad that you at least have the legendary N to free you. I hope that you'll go peacefully.

Financial problems mainly which are forcing me to do it now. I will be kicked out from where I live next month. I had other problems too. Mental issues, mental illness, complete inability to relate to anyone in real life or make friends or find a girlfriend my whole life. Big decisions I messed up. It's hard to say without going into detail. I will be doing it tomorrow.

I feel embarrassed and ashamed to write a ctb note with the reasons. I might leave it and not bother with one.

Don't feel embarassed, they're noble reasons. I'm sorry society failed you. We should never have to choose between suicide & homelesness. I'm at risk too. I hope you'll have a nice rest in the bus.

I have some money and I have a plan to commit suicide in a few days, I won't take the money with me while I'm dead lol

It'sso kind of you. You sound ready & at peace... But he sounds forced & not ready. I wish he could go live at your place.

Need a definite answer to this before I do it: will adding a sweetener to the N change its potency or chemical makeup to make it not effective?

I wouldn't risk it, I'd hold my breath & drink it faster than my brain can acknowledge the taste, then you can lick a loly pop?

 

[wljourney]

Need a definite answer to this before I do it: will adding a sweetener to the N change its potency or chemical makeup to make it not effective?

I think you can add sweetener, yes. If you feel that may make it easier to drink the potion.
However I believe many choose to just drink it straight up (maybe cooling it helps take away some of the nasty taste) and then follow with a dab of honey spread in the mouth or a piece of chocolate.

Thank you for sharing your experiences and journey.
Wishing you well.

 

[I want to end it]

Thanks for the help everyone!

I was going to visit an escort (the type you have sex with) as something to do before I ctb. I was about to visit her today but she cancelled less than 2 hours before seeing me, saying her dad became ill. I have had many excuses like this before from women I tried going on dates with, so I am skeptical if she is lying. They text you the excuse at the last moment and you have no way of knowing if they are telling the truth. I am trying to organize seeing another escort so I might have to hold off from ctb for 1 or 2 days.

Sorry. This is something I wanted to do before ctb and this escort cancelling on me at the last moment has ruined things.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear that things didn't go to plan and I hope you are able to have some memorable moments and do the things you want to do before you ctb. I wish you peace and calm.

 

[eternapeace]

Thanks for the help everyone!

I was going to visit an escort (the type you have sex with) as something to do before I ctb. I was about to visit her today but she cancelled less than 2 hours before seeing me, saying her dad became ill. I have had many excuses like this before from women I tried going on dates with, so I am skeptical if she is lying. They text you the excuse at the last moment and you have no way of knowing if they are telling the truth. I am trying to organize seeing another escort so I might have to hold off from ctb for 1 or 2 days.

Sorry. This is something I wanted to do before ctb and this escort cancelling on me at the last moment has ruined things.

Hi. Can you share your full story? Is money the only problem? Or do you have other problem that make think you have no chance to turn your life around even if you had money to live a few more months?

 

[Musketeer]

I will be seeing you in the next world, hopefully we can have a beer.
All the best. It's always sad seeing someone here go.

 

[I want to end it]

Trying to organise another escort after the one I was going to see cancelled on me at the last minute. They are either not replying or trying to scam me.

Hi. Can you share your full story? Is money the only problem? Or do you have other problem that make think you have no chance to turn your life around even if you had money to live a few more months?

It would take too long to explain and even then, no one would fully understand it apart from me because I was the one who lived it. I have other problems too. I tried turning my life around back in 2018 when I thought I would do it but ended up not doing it. Since then, things got worse and other unfortunate circumstances (partly my fault, partly out of my control) have led me to this. I have been on here 4 years so it's not like I haven't tried at life. Other people join here and ctb in their first month. I have no choice but to do it this time.


edit: I have booked a different escort for early tomorrow. I hope she does not cancel. I won't be ctbing until tomorrow. I was going to do it today.