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Quzevi

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Nov 19, 2025
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Here's what happened.

My weight is 85kg and I drank 3.4 units of alcohol with 10ml GHB. I was feeling a bit fuzzy for 30 minutes then I went unconscious. Woke up in hospital about 6 hours later with no injuries or pain, although I was a bit confused for a few mins. The doctor told me I had respiratory arrest.

I suspect the dose was too low because I would not have woken up after 6 hours if the dose was significantly higher.

Will soon attempt again with 6.8 units of alcohol and 80ml GHB and make sure to go to a location where no will find me. Feeling confident that I will definitely succeed this time.

 
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Nolongerlive

Student
Feb 28, 2026
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what about 1 4 butanediol? are they the same ?
 
ButterflySucideBaby

ButterflySucideBaby

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Dec 30, 2025
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How did you end up in the hospital, if you don't mind sharing?
 
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Quzevi

Member
Nov 19, 2025
13
How did you end up in the hospital, if you don't mind sharing?
I was found by my sibling.

Tried it at night in my house. I did a low dose on purpose to test it. They found me snoring or gasping for air.

Was a huge risk but it was worth it.
 
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ButterflySucideBaby

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oh, you were experiencing agonal respiration. thanks for sharing
 
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Quzevi

Member
Nov 19, 2025
13
oh, you were experiencing agonal respiration. thanks for sharing
I've attempted before with sodium nitrite and this method is far better than having tachycardia, nausea and being conscious knowing you will die.
 
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WhyMe123

WhyMe123

Over it
May 22, 2026
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I was found by my sibling.

Tried it at night in my house. I did a low dose on purpose to test it. They found me snoring or gasping for air.

Was a huge risk but it was worth it.
Thanks for sharing!
I've been looking into GHB as a method because it does have you pass out before the onset of the more lethal side effects with a higher dose.
However, being found is part of what can sabotage the plan and is why I was considering doing it in a little tent in a park near to where I live.
I've also been considering hot boxing tent with CO (carbon monoxide), in addition to GHB.
However, the risk with that is that when someone "G's out", they can kick their legs and flail their arms, which could kick over the charcoal grill that would be emitting the CO.

But yeah, definitely I would not want to be found ODing because in that case, perhaps if someone did not find me, I would still have a chance to have the substance do its thing..

I don't think it's a good idea to attempt when other people can find you within a few hours.

Sorry you were dealing with suicidal ideation just like most of us on here.
It really sucks and I feel your pain.

I hope you can find peace soon.
 
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Throwawaysoul

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May 14, 2018
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Does anyone know anything about BDO? Not a lot of US GHB listings on the darkweb. There are a few BDO listings. At first glance I think BDO is weaker.
 
WhyMe123

WhyMe123

Over it
May 22, 2026
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Does anyone know anything about BDO? Not a lot of US GHB listings on the darkweb. There are a few BDO listings. At first glance I think BDO is weaker.
Honestly my plan was to go to a nightclub and ask around for G cuz people use it as a party drug… Then would ask if I can have their dealer's contact.
Pretty sketch but I also have not tried the dark web & I feel like I don't trust it.
Then again - many dealers also are untrustworthy..
Have you considered that?
I guess especially if someone is shy or don't want to basically beg people in person for drug access, it's not an appealing option
Especially cuz you might just have a bunch of people say they don't use it

But I feel like if I have literally just my life to lose, I would try that.
Curious to know your thoughts…
 
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isthisthingon

Experienced
May 16, 2026
224
I've attempted before with sodium nitrite and this method is far better than having tachycardia, nausea and being conscious knowing you will die.
Did you follow the protocol?
 

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