I understand how you feel. My current contract ends July 31st and I still do not have another job for August. I am being considered for a position but the employer has a TERRIBLE reputation and honestly, I hope they don't offer the job to me. For me, working in my current profession is ingrained into who I am. without a job in this field I think I would feel useless. I'm really good at my job, but I'm 60 years old and most companies in my profession don't want to hire someone my age. I'm thinking that the universe is about to tell me that my time on this planet is over and it's ok to leave. I have the method ( three bottles of N), I just need the motive... and the will.