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- Oct 20, 2021
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hello
im buying the sn today with my mother ,she has no idea im using it to ctb, she asked why i needed it, i told her for a science experiment as an extra curricular activity to cure meats. she ate that right up, shes taking me today, driving me for 45 minutes to this chemical supply store that should have it in pure and large quantities, id still like to do a blood test and ideally an acquarium test too.
i will probably be following stans 48 hour regimen, i dont have anything "scheduled" out yet, ill do that incredibly soon.
thank god i live in a third world country because i can but AE's without prescription here, not meto unfortunately but domperidone, which according to stans guide would work too.
im also buying some pain killers and antacids tomorrow from the same pharmacy, hopefully this all works out.
i dont believe id be writing a note, maybe just instructions on not to help or resuscitate if found.
i should have enough sn for perhaps multiple attempts all with backupglasses (which im not sure how reliably, heard noone survived) regardless, id like to maximize my chances.
at the current moment, i have no access to any sedatives.
ive been thinking about this for over a year, incredibly interested in philosophy and tried being open to all viewpoints, im sure this is what i want.
keeping it brief, i know others here have it a lot worse, but im very depressed, nihilistic and do not feel motivated enough to put any effort even if something could be done about it, id much rather ctb, even though, its not like id live to regret it right?
it would probably hurt my mother and a few close friends, but im not really emotionally attached so im not really bothered.
ill update you guys when i can, please give thoughts if you have any.
also am sorry in advance if i broke any rules on this site.
im buying the sn today with my mother ,she has no idea im using it to ctb, she asked why i needed it, i told her for a science experiment as an extra curricular activity to cure meats. she ate that right up, shes taking me today, driving me for 45 minutes to this chemical supply store that should have it in pure and large quantities, id still like to do a blood test and ideally an acquarium test too.
i will probably be following stans 48 hour regimen, i dont have anything "scheduled" out yet, ill do that incredibly soon.
thank god i live in a third world country because i can but AE's without prescription here, not meto unfortunately but domperidone, which according to stans guide would work too.
im also buying some pain killers and antacids tomorrow from the same pharmacy, hopefully this all works out.
i dont believe id be writing a note, maybe just instructions on not to help or resuscitate if found.
i should have enough sn for perhaps multiple attempts all with backupglasses (which im not sure how reliably, heard noone survived) regardless, id like to maximize my chances.
at the current moment, i have no access to any sedatives.
ive been thinking about this for over a year, incredibly interested in philosophy and tried being open to all viewpoints, im sure this is what i want.
keeping it brief, i know others here have it a lot worse, but im very depressed, nihilistic and do not feel motivated enough to put any effort even if something could be done about it, id much rather ctb, even though, its not like id live to regret it right?
it would probably hurt my mother and a few close friends, but im not really emotionally attached so im not really bothered.
ill update you guys when i can, please give thoughts if you have any.
also am sorry in advance if i broke any rules on this site.
