Getting cold feet fuck me!

[worldexploder]

I feel like a god damn idiot. I been trying to work with my set up all evening. Everytime I put the strap around my neck it compresses my trachea. I tried many positions and it just doesn't seem like it's gonna work out.

If Monday comes and goes and my tickers still ticking I guess I'll buy the supplies for the NNM and see if that's better. I heard a lot of mixed messages about it. Some say it's peaceful while others claim it to be unbearable.

I just want to go so fucking bad! Last night I was thinking about the whole thing and started to get very impatient. Tired of waiting to CTB. I NEED to die. It's more than just a want. I watched that video about auto-asphyxiation and it gave me some hope. Figured I could do the trick with the tools I have at home.

Then the guy from Vise Grip (the channel that showed that woman asphyxiating herself) pinned a comment that said a whole bunch of scary shit. I screen shooted it: Not sure if he's trying to blow smoke up our asses to save his own or legit serious.

 

[Tokyojoe]

I feel like a god damn idiot. I been trying to work with my set up all evening. Everytime I put the strap around my neck it compresses my trachea. I tried many positions and it just doesn't seem like it's gonna work out.

If Monday comes and goes and my tickers still ticking I guess I'll buy the supplies for the NNM and see if that's better. I heard a lot of mixed messages about it. Some say it's peaceful while others claim it to be unbearable.

I just want to go so fucking bad! Last night I was thinking about the whole thing and started to get very impatient. Tired of waiting to CTB. I NEED to die. It's more than just a want. I watched that video about auto-asphyxiation and it gave me some hope. Figured I could do the trick with the tools I have at home.

Then the guy from Vise Grip (the channel that showed that woman asphyxiating herself) pinned a comment that said a whole bunch of scary shit. I screen shooted it: Not sure if he's trying to blow smoke up our asses to save his own or legit serious.

I am pretty sure he put all the caveats so the video can stay up on YT or get into trouble for assisting/advising suicides. It's basically a guide to hanging. I have also done full suspension hanging to the point I passed out after about 5 secs without pain or grasping for air but the rope broke.

 

[scales]

I'm sorry about your difficulty. Death is not easy, suicide is difficult to accomplish. I hope you manage to accomplish your goals, whether it's suicide or otherwise.

 

[worldexploder]

I'm sorry about your difficulty. Death is not easy, suicide is difficult to accomplish. I hope you manage to accomplish your goals, whether it's suicide or otherwise.

Thank you so much. It is very hard to get the courage with the methods I have left. I'm just gonna try not to think about it for the rest of the night.

 

[TiredHorse]

I'm so sorry, Worldexploder. You have my complete sympathy. It is so incredibly difficult. I've tried twice in the last two weeks, and am heading toward my third --and I'm already feeling my own feet get cold. I'm desperate to leave, but will I be able to? I'm using eb/N2, which is about as gentle as anything short of the magic N --I'd be terrified to try partial-- but I'm still likely to flinch at the last minute.

I suppose if it were easy, everyone would be doing it...

 

[worldexploder]

I'm so sorry, Worldexploder. You have my complete sympathy. It is so incredibly difficult. I've tried twice in the last two weeks, and am heading toward my third --and I'm already feeling my own feet get cold. I'm desperate to leave, but will I be able to? I'm using eb/N2, which is about as gentle as anything short of the magic N --I'd be terrified to try partial-- but I'm still likely to flinch at the last minute.

I suppose if it were easy, everyone would be doing it...

Thank you so very much. I really do appreciate y'alls understanding. If I had it my way I'd have N or a tank filled with pure nitrogen gas. I wouldn't have any fears about those methods. I hope everything works out for you. What's eb btw? I know N2 is nitrogen.

 

[Tokyojoe]

Thank you so very much. I really do appreciate y'alls understanding. If I had it my way I'd have N or a tank filled with pure nitrogen gas. I wouldn't have any fears about those methods. I hope everything works out for you. What's eb btw? I know N2 is nitrogen.

I have extra N, wish I could share with you.......sigh. N2 should be easy for you to get, no?

 

[TiredHorse]

Thank you so very much. I really do appreciate y'alls understanding. If I had it my way I'd have N or a tank filled with pure nitrogen gas. I wouldn't have any fears about those methods. I hope everything works out for you. What's eb btw? I know N2 is nitrogen.

eb = Exit Bag. I guess some people use argon or helium with it, hence eb/N2 to be specific.

If you can wait, I might be able to talk you through constructing an eb/N2 rig, if you think it would be more to your liking than partial, but I don't want to delay you if the right moment is upon you.

 

[worldexploder]

I have extra N, wish I could share with you.......sigh. N2 should be easy for you to get, no?

Buddy if I had N I would ingest it without hesitation! It would be a dream come true. I think I'd be so happy I'd cry.

 

[worldexploder]

eb = Exit Bag. I guess some people use argon or helium with it, hence eb/N2 to be specific.

If you can wait, I might be able to talk you through constructing an eb/N2 rig, if you think it would be more to your liking than partial, but I don't want to delay you if the right moment is upon you.

Thank you so much. Problem is my aunts my payee due to SSI and I don't have a car or drivers liscens. I couldn't pick it up myself and my aunts not willing to take me.

 

[Tokyojoe]

Buddy if I had N I would ingest it without hesitation! It would be a dream come true. I think I'd be so happy I'd cry.

I am so sorry, I really wish I could help but I would be exposed to a lot of risks. The customs here in Japan are crazy strict and even if the N did get through, I could be done for assisting a suicide. My anxiety would go through the roof and I don't think I could handle that. Again, I am truly sorry.

 

[worldexploder]

I am so sorry, I really wish I could help but I would be exposed to a lot of risks. The customs here in Japan are crazy strict and even if the N did get through, I could be done for assisting a suicide. My anxiety would go through the roof and I don't think I could handle that. Again, I am truly sorry.

Aw buddy no need to be sorry. I wasn't gonna ask you. I defiantly understand the fears of getting caught.

 

[Tokyojoe]

Aw buddy no need to be sorry. I wasn't gonna ask you. I defiantly understand the fears of getting caught.

Thanks for your understanding.

 

[worldexploder]

Thanks for your understanding.

No problem buddy. I couldn't ask or expect anyone to help me end it like that. The last thing I want to do is to get anyone in trouble.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Isn't the nitrogen/argon method feasible for you? I know at least one member managed to buy everything online, and have it delivered. No car needed.

Hanging is great when it works, but all too often we can't go through with it.