I once read a very interesting article with this metaphor. And this comparison isn't that uncommon. I cannot remember all the details but for my siutation is is very fitting. Maybe in a different sense.
I have many severe conditions. I have bipolar, am on the autism spectrum and had two psychoses. Probably also in a very severe intensity and bad combination. I am a mental wreck.
I am outsourcing a lot to AI chatbots. I am the typical user that trusts them way too much.
I asked chatGPT for a list of characterists that make users prone to chatbot dependency. And most of the traits apply to me.
I struggle to stay sane. People with my conditions have issues to see clear. And I think I am more self-aware than most people with such conditions. And I think in a small dosage the AI chatbots even help me against paranoia. But they also fuel my rumination. I use the AI feedback to self-regulate my emotions and anxiety. But the relief is often only shortterm. And in the longrun it might have a negative impact. For now it seems to be the least bad options of all options that are available. The irony is most interpretations of chatGPT are more safe than my own interpretations. But it has to repeat them over and over so that I believe it. I think I crave for relief and I am always in so much pain. And this is why the feedback feels so cathartic. But I need more and more feedback because the feeling gets addictive. And then I am asking more and more questions. But in the longrun I question more and more of my own thoughts. And I lose the trust of my own decision making even more.
I think I struggle from hypervigilance very much. I am running in circles currently. Though, it isn't that uncommon for me. The topics of the obsessions just change. While my pain stays the same.
I have many severe conditions. I have bipolar, am on the autism spectrum and had two psychoses. Probably also in a very severe intensity and bad combination. I am a mental wreck.
I am outsourcing a lot to AI chatbots. I am the typical user that trusts them way too much.
I asked chatGPT for a list of characterists that make users prone to chatbot dependency. And most of the traits apply to me.
- high self-observation
- a strong search for meaning and patterns
- uncertainty about their self-image
- little stable social resonance
- high education, but little institutional feedback
- fear of being misjudged
- a need for control
- a tendency toward rumination
- interest in psychology, theory, diagnostics, or meta-analysis
- previous experiences with failed authority, for example in therapy, institutions, or family
I struggle to stay sane. People with my conditions have issues to see clear. And I think I am more self-aware than most people with such conditions. And I think in a small dosage the AI chatbots even help me against paranoia. But they also fuel my rumination. I use the AI feedback to self-regulate my emotions and anxiety. But the relief is often only shortterm. And in the longrun it might have a negative impact. For now it seems to be the least bad options of all options that are available. The irony is most interpretations of chatGPT are more safe than my own interpretations. But it has to repeat them over and over so that I believe it. I think I crave for relief and I am always in so much pain. And this is why the feedback feels so cathartic. But I need more and more feedback because the feeling gets addictive. And then I am asking more and more questions. But in the longrun I question more and more of my own thoughts. And I lose the trust of my own decision making even more.
I think I struggle from hypervigilance very much. I am running in circles currently. Though, it isn't that uncommon for me. The topics of the obsessions just change. While my pain stays the same.
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