touyathecat
Please let me go
- Jun 23, 2024
- 11
so per my last post, no i didn't attempt or call an ambulance for my sickness. i ended up being able to sleep eventually, i chickened out again. the only real reason i'm alive is for other people, none for myself. all of the reasons i have for hesitating are other people. i'm scared that my family would be destroyed by it, and that online friends might find out in some way. i wanna jump a train (there's tracks near me) but i also havent done that yet for its affects on others. i want to die, i deserve to die, and i'm going to soon, its just scary. and not even for SI reasons, but because of the people who will find me. that's held me back more than SI and i'm so drained
