Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always and only hoping for true permanent peace.
No matter what the true permanent peace of non-existence truly is all I could hope for and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this futile deeply undesirable existence rather all I want is to be gone.

I just wish for no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of the dreadful, painful and deeply undesirable abomination of existence that just causes and brings all this suffering, I'll just only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious free from the pain and suffering of existing and I'll just always find it so painful to exist, it's pain only non-existence can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is just so much cruelty in existing and it's all so terrible to me, all I want is peace from the terrible mistake of existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me with no more suffering and I'll always see this cruel, torturous existence as only suffering.

No matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist, I'll always see existence as the problem, in this existence so torturous and futile that just causes all this unnecessary suffering only non-existence could ever be positive for me and I just find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this suffering and cruelty as a result.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always an abomination to me.
It truly is always an abomination to me and it's one that just causes all this harm, suffering and cruelty with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just always suffer so much as a result of this terrible, dreadful and harmful existence I just always saw as a mistake that just tortures existing beings.

I just want some peace from the cruel, terrible and dreadful abomination of existence that just causes and brings all this futile, unnecessary suffering and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always the problem to me.
I truly will always see existence as the problem that just causes all this pain, harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always find it so torturous to exist, all I want is to be gone.

I just want to erase this cruel, dreadful existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I'll just always see existence as an abomination and I just suffer so much as a result of it, all I hope for is to be gone, I just want some peace from this existence of dreadful suffering that just harms and tortures existing beings.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for the dreadful abomination of existence.
No matter what I really would never wish for the terrible, dreadful abomination of existence that just causes harm and suffering all for the sake of it and I'll just always find it so harmful to exist, all I want is peace from the abomination of existence.

I just always suffer so much from existing in this terrible, dreadful reality where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so torturous that just causes all this cruelty with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I wish to erase this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

The peace of non-existence is all I've ever seen as desirable.
It truly is all I've seen as desirable in this torturous existence of dreadful suffering and I'll just always prefer to not exist no matter what, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so dreadful that causes all this harm and suffering.

For me non-existence is just the only relief and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to be gone, I just wish to be at peace from the suffering, torture of existing, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me and bring me relief from, I just want to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only wanting this existence all forgotten.
No matter what all I could ever hope is for this dreadful, cruel and painful existence to be all gone and forgotten and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this deeply undesirable, torturous existence rather all I want is some peace.

I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence that just causes all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I just want to erase this terrible, dreadful existence, I really will always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence that just harms and tortures existing beings.

 

[FuneralCry]

In this existence so dreadful only non-existence can bring me peace.
It truly is all that can bring me peace and I'll just only be at peace once I'm finally free from the dreadful, cruel and torturous abomination of existence that only ever causes harm and suffering, the peace of non-existence truly is all I could see as positive and desirable and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

For me non-existence is just all I could ever hope for, I wish for no more suffering and I'll just always prefer to not exist no matter what than be burdened with this existence, for me non-existence is just the only relief, I just hope for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be only suffering to me no matter what.
It truly is always and only suffering to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous existence rather all I want is some peace, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so torturous and terrible that I just always saw as a mistake.

I just want to erase this terrible, torturous existence, I just wish for no more suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this deeply undesirable, painful existence that just causes harm and suffering no matter what, for me non-existence is just all that's positive in this existence so dreadful that only ever causes so much pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence only ever causes harm and suffering.
It truly does only ever cause harm and suffering torturing existing beings and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this painful, cruel and dreadful existence that will always be a mistake to me.

I just find it so terrible how this existence was imposed causing all this dreadful suffering as a result and I'll always see existing as just being futile suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, all I hope for is peace from it all, in this existence so torturous and terrible I just want non-existence to solve everything for me, for me ceasing to exist is the positive solution to finally be at peace from this existence that just causes all this harm and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so terrible to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really will always find it so terrible to suffer in this painful, torturous existence and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is true permanent peace, existence to me will always be a mistake that never should had been imposed.

I just always suffer as a result of this cruel, dreadful existence, there is just so much suffering in existing and I'll always prefer the true permanent peace of non-existence over suffering so unnecessarily, I just want to erase this torturous, cruel existence, I just want non-existence to finally bring me peace from this terrible existence of torturous suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for this existence of futile suffering.
No matter what I really would never wish for this existence of futile suffering that I just always saw as the most dreadful mistake, in this existence so torturous that just causes all this harm and suffering only non-existence could ever be positive for me.

I just see it as so terrible how this existence was imposed causing and bringing all this pain and suffering as a result, I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, I'll just always prefer to not exist than be tortured by this painful, deeply undesirable existence that just causes all this suffering that there was never a need for all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

This existence never should had been imposed.
It truly never should had been imposed and I'd just never wish for the pain, torture and suffering of existing rather all I want is to be gone, existence to me is just always the most cruel, terrible mistake that just causes endless amounts of harm and torture.

I'll just always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence, I just want to erase this existence, I just want to never suffer again and I'll always see this dreadful, painful existence as only suffering, I just want for all to be forgotten for me, I just want to never suffer again, the fact that this existence just causes all this terrible, dreadful harm and suffering truly is an abomination.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only hoping to be gone.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is peace from the pain, suffering and torture of existing, I just want to be gone, for me the peace of non-existence is just always preferable to this dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so terrible.

I just want to be gone, for me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence that only ever caused me to suffer and I'll just always see this torturous existence as only suffering, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always an unnecessary harm to me.
It truly is just an unnecessary harm to me and I'd just never wish for this torturous existence that only ever causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to suffer in this existence truly is an abomination to me and it's one only non-existence can bring me any peace from.

For non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence so harmful and torturous and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, all that existence ever does is just cause harm, there's just so much pain and suffering in this torturous existence, it's all just so terrible and I'd never wish for any of this, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It truly is so cruel to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, cruel existence rather all I want is some peace, I just wish to be free from this futile existence of dreadful suffering I just always saw as a mistake that just harms and tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

Existence is just so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, for me non-existence is just the only relief from suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I just want to be free from it all, I just want to never suffer again and the suffering of this cruel existence is endless.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I could ever hope for.
It truly is all I could hope for in this torturous existence of dreadful suffering that I just always saw as a mistake and I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence over suffering in this existence of torturous suffering no matter what.

I just want all to be gone, forgotten and erased for me, for me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence I just always saw as the problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for peace, I just want this existence to be all gone, forgotten and erased for me, no matter what I really will always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence that just causes all this pain and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always the most cruel, terrible mistake to me.
It truly is always the most cruel, terrible mistake to me and I'd just never wish for the suffering and torture of this painful, dreadful existence, in this existence I just always saw as a mistake non-existence is just the only peace for me and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed, all I hope for is to be gone.

I just want to never suffer again and I'll just always see this painful, cruel existence as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I just want to erase this existence that just causes all this dreadful suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always an abomination to me.
It truly is an abomination to me that just causes all this terrible cruelty harm and suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just all that's positive in this existence so dreadful and painful.

I'd just never wish to exist, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence I just always saw as an abomination, I'll always see existence as the problem, to me existence will always be an abomination, I'll just always see existence as something so dreadful that just causes all this suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I just want to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so dreadful.
It truly is so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for the terrible, dreadful suffering of this painful existence rather all I want is some peace, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake.

For me existence really is always the problem, I'd just never wish for the burden of existence and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence that just causes all this harm and suffering, for me non-existence is just the only relief and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll always see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this dreadful suffering as a result, I just want to erase this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

This existence never should had been imposed.
This existence truly never should had been imposed and I'll see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm, suffering and cruelty as a result, all I want is to be gone.

I just want to never suffer again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's just all so dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this, for me non-existence is just all that's positive and desirable in this existence so torturous that I just never would had chosen and the suffering and torture of existing is endless, I just wish I could erase this dreadful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always so torturous to me.
It truly is so torturous to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, cruel existence I just always saw as a mistake, all I hope for is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again and the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing is endless.

It's just all so dreadful and I'd never wish to suffer, for me non-existence is just the only peace, for me every second is torture to be conscious in this existence, all that existence ever does is just cause harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always find it so torturous to suffer in this cruel, futile existence no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so deeply undesirable to exist.
No matter what I truly will always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is some peace, I just hope to be free from this existence that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering torturing existing beings.

I just suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence, all I want is to erase this dreadful, cruel and harmful existence so it's like I never suffered and I'll always see this torturous existence as being only suffering, for me non-existence is all that could ever be desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always so terrible to me.
It truly is just always so terrible to me and I'd never wish for the suffering of this dreadful, torturous existence rather all I want is to be gone.

I just want some peace from this torturous, cruel existence, I just want to never suffer again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, existence will just always be the most terrible, dreadful mistake to me that only ever causes all this dreadful suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, all I want is to erase this existence that just causes all this harm and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am just always so tired of suffering in this dreadful, tortuous existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is the peace of non-existence where all is gone and forgotten, in this existence so torturous and dreadful for me non-existence is just all that's positive, I just want to never suffer again.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I just hope and wish to be gone, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence so terrible and torturous that I just always saw as the most cruel mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just the only peace for me.
It truly is the only peace for me in this existence so torturous and terrible and I'd just never wish for the suffering and torture of existing rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer again and the suffering, pain and torture of existing is endless, it's just all so dreadful and I'd never wish to exist.

For me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence I just always saw as a mistake, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me, I just hope for no more suffering, I wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence, I just want to be gone, I just hope to erase this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just an abomination.
It truly is an abomination that just causes all this suffering, pain and cruelty and I'd just never wish to suffer in this painful, dreadful and cruel existence rather all I want is some peace, in this existence I just always saw as a mistake non-existence really is the only peace for me.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible, torturous abomination of existence that only ever causes all of this terrible cruelty, harm and suffering, I just want to erase this existence, I just want to never suffer again and I'll always see this painful, dreadful existence as only being suffering all for the sake of it, it's just so terrible to me how this existence was even imposed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist than suffer in this torturous existence.
No matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous existence and for me non-existence is just all that's positive and desirable in this existence of unnecessary suffering and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

To suffer in this existence really is always an abomination to me and I'd just never wish for the suffering, cruelty and torture of this painful, deeply undesirable existence, all I hope for is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again, I just want this existence of torturous suffering to be all gone, forgotten and erased for me.

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

We will win. Life represents evil; everything bad that happens only happens because there is life. It's not just an individual feeling; it is what it is. There is no illusion that can mask this reality for long. There is nothing that humanity has created that works to escape the lack of purpose in existing. It is everywhere, in the eyes of anyone who wants to see. Observe an ant being dragged by the water, and you will see there the summary of our existence. We are like the ant; the only difference is that we had the misfortune of having an evolved consciousness only to torture us with the reality: existence has no purpose. Each one will have to create one. And like everything human, these creations are illusions. Many of us only move biologically like the ant, but the mind, the consciousness of existing without reason, tortures us every day. We have the same primal instinct as the insect and end up in a useless prison. But fortunately, this will end. It may not be as we wish, it will be beyond our control, but we will free ourselves and return to the state from which we should never have left. My only consolation is the end. Like most, I would like to control it. To go in peace, without violence, with dignity, by my own choice. If not, I still know that this torture will end. I have been here for six decades. And for four of them I have lived like an ant, dragging myself through life that does what it wants. Death is beautiful and the only good thing there is. Observe the bodies aged by disease and you clearly perceive how much evil exists only while we are alive. I love that death exists and I can create in my mind the image I want. It is my refuge, my safe haven.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always just be waiting to die.
No matter what I really will always just see existing as waiting to die, it's just unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and I could never see any point to any of this rather existence just feels like a mistake that just causes all this terrible, dreadful harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I'll just always and only hope for non-existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief in this existence I just always saw as the problem, to me existence really is an abomination and I always suffer so much as a result of this terrible, torturous existence that is just waiting to die.