I'm very sure I want to CTB, but can't find the courage to do it. I'm also torn between using poison hemlock or hanging. I feel like I should do it before summer is over because then I can at least pass away during the season I feel in touch with my spirit. How do I gain the courage?
I feel like there's more honor to be dead than live a life that goes nowhere and nobody even liked you. If I can't turn my life around and do something meaningful or productive with it, I don't want to be here. If I died, nobody would even notice, if that plays a role in anything.
I feel like there's more honor to be dead than live a life that goes nowhere and nobody even liked you. If I can't turn my life around and do something meaningful or productive with it, I don't want to be here. If I died, nobody would even notice, if that plays a role in anything.
