Venting Fuck society

[Prime0]

Omg fuck this world fuck this society fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckk fuck this pathetic ass society fuck this shit I feel like I'm fucking trapped in a prison all I want is a fucking euthanasia yet I can't have it I'm 22 years old I've been expecting to die since 13 years old and even more since 2 years due to some fucking life circumstances changing but I can't even ask for euthanasia and I live with my fucking parents and methods need money so it's hard for me to access most of these metods all I want is to stop existing but I can't in this pathetic shitty ass retarded disgusting society they don't give a fucking shit about you but they are playing heroes I wish I had a gun so I could at the very least blow my fucking brains out I'm trapped in this cell I can't even get euthanasia if you are lucky they ask you why you want to die if not you get put in a mental ward omg this society is sick, rotten to the core, unbelieavable how fucking pathetic can this race be I know probably no one is gonna read this but I just needed to vent I'm so tired of this shit I don't want to keep doing it for another 40 years I'm waiting for my parents to die so I can fucking kill myself or maybe to find a method that I can do with ressources available to me I'm trapped in this circus why I can't get a cardiac arrest or something life is trash it's fucking garbage it's pathetic
I already hate my fucking life yet I have to keep playing this shit game I don't want to but can't even talk about that irl, you simply can't, I have to keep pretending everything is normal everything is okay I don't fucking want to JUST GIVE ME EUTHANASIA, not even free maybe charge me 20k I'm gonna work my ass off just to get it, fuck this shitty ass society you dumbasses just fuck it, I have to work my ass off in order to not even get a house or euthanasia, pathetic assholes you created a suicidal citizen that enters into this site at 2 am night through illegal means good job you retards good job, I can't even ask euthanasia from my stupid doctor because guess what no access.
"You are so young" I DONT FUCKING CARE I FUCKING DONT I JUST DON'T, Am I supposed to be reassured with that? To know that I still have decennies of misery? For my whole fucking life I pretended to be "normal" and participated, but you piece of shits don't even know that I hate you with all of my heart, I hate every piece of shit that opposes euthanasia, that prevents me from just dying as easily as snapping fingers, that makes me search for harder means and living the rest of my life by hating it.
I just can't with this world man, why the fuck do I have to search suicide methods discreetly by entering in tor (this site is banned in my country) at night, in an ideal society I would've just gone to the doctor and they would've euthanized me in exchange of some money.

 

[PathtoDie]

I agree with you completely. Whoever's opposing euthanasia has no idea the amount of PAIN and SUFFERING we're facing when we're denied a peaceful way to escape our miserable body. I can just tell how much pain you're in, even if it were completely psychological, so what? All this anti-suicide mindset does is make people who want to get away from this world suffer more, and search for as you said harder methods just to get the hell away forever.

How bad can it be to have suicide centers with euthanasia available for adults for a fee and a signature? I don't care if half of the population signs and passes away. It's our choice. My body, my choice.

It's just so fucking useless trying to make people understand this that think suicide is some kind of horrific crime when it's the total opposite. Every story has at least 2 sides. I tried talking to my family about this, tried being open about my suicidal thoughts. They just freak the fuck out but act as if they understand and keep a closer eye on me so I'm trapped not only in my body, but with my own family (even tho I love them from my heart) locking me in their house.

I had one opportunity, to jump from the edge of a mountain that I was hiking with my dad and I fucking blew it due to the shitty Survival Instinct AND because my father begged me to think about my mother and what she'd do if I were to jump. I mean, he was physically holding me from jumping at that point as well, but I had a moment where I kind of sat down with him to talk about my plan, and blew that one too because of SI and the high amount of dopamine you get when you convince yourself that you're going to climb down the mountain with your dad and go back to the safety of your home where your mother is ready to hug you.

I'm rambling, sorry about that, but I totally understand how you're feeling, yet mad at the same time that we're being denied access to a peaceful method. What did they think people are gonna do if they deny euthanasia access? Well, kill themselves anyway, except with WAY worse methods, and sometimes near public areas. The people that came up with these "legal" rules are a bunch of clowns, that's for sure.

 

[zam_zam]

I agree with you completely. Whoever's opposing euthanasia has no idea the amount of PAIN and SUFFERING we're facing when we're denied a peaceful way to escape our miserable body. I can just tell how much pain you're in, even if it were completely psychological, so what? All this anti-suicide mindset does is make people who want to get away from this world suffer more, and search for as you said harder methods just to get the hell away forever.

How bad can it be to have suicide centers with euthanasia available for adults for a fee and a signature? I don't care if half of the population signs and passes away. It's our choice. My body, my choice.

It's just so fucking useless trying to make people understand this that think suicide is some kind of horrific crime when it's the total opposite. Every story has at least 2 sides. I tried talking to my family about this, tried being open about my suicidal thoughts. They just freak the fuck out but act as if they understand and keep a closer eye on me so I'm trapped not only in my body, but with my own family (even tho I love them from my heart) locking me in their house.

I had one opportunity, to jump from the edge of a mountain that I was hiking with my dad and I fucking blew it due to the shitty Survival Instinct AND because my father begged me to think about my mother and what she'd do if I were to jump. I mean, he was physically holding me from jumping at that point as well, but I had a moment where I kind of sat down with him to talk about my plan, and blew that one too because of SI and the high amount of dopamine you get when you convince yourself that you're going to climb down the mountain with your dad and go back to the safety of your home where your mother is ready to hug you.

I'm rambling, sorry about that, but I totally understand how you're feeling, yet mad at the same time that we're being denied access to a peaceful method. What did they think people are gonna do if they deny euthanasia access? Well, kill themselves anyway, except with WAY worse methods, and sometimes near public areas. The people that came up with these "legal" rules are a bunch of clowns, that's for sure.

No don't kill yourself if you do your CEO would be upset

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

it's much worse than they deny euthanasia. they went far out of their way to make every gauranteed suicide method into a crime ,like Nembutal , sarco suicide pod, paying someone to shoot me in the head .

the only reason i can't pay someone to shoot me in the head is because these monsters made that a crime, they wrote laws to make it criminal . same for why can't i buy 2 bottles of Nembutal ? because they made someone selling Nembutal a crime : they put the one guy D from N from D into prison for selling nembutal .

they also put Dr. kevorkian in prison for assisting suicide

also Kenneth law for selling SN

and even some very old lady for making exit bags and selling them.

 

[Tellurian120]

At this point, I'm convinced the government in my country is only concerned with making sure everyone stays alive, no matter how miserable their circumstances. I don't want to live decades more, I don't even want to live a year more, but the government works hard to make sure suicidal people are completely pliant, including ordering ISPs to block this website. Hell, I wouldn't be surprised if they soon made it mandatory to share ID just to go on social media, whilst the reason I am suicidal is because of what is happening outside, and it is only because of websites like these that I have some sort of an outlet. Not to mention I'd likely end up in a psych ward if I ever did open up.

Trust me, I know what will happen if I die tomorrow. Outside of my family, society will move on. I will leave no permanent imprint.

 

[monkeysee2]

At this point, I'm convinced the government in my country is only concerned with making sure everyone stays alive, no matter how miserable their circumstances. I don't want to live decades more, I don't even want to live a year more, but the government works hard to make sure suicidal people are completely pliant, including ordering ISPs to block this website. Hell, I wouldn't be surprised if they soon made it mandatory to share ID just to go on social media, whilst the reason I am suicidal is because of what is happening outside, and it is only because of websites like these that I have some sort of an outlet. Not to mention I'd likely end up in a psych ward if I ever did open up.

Trust me, I know what will happen if I die tomorrow. Outside of my family, society will move on. I will leave no permanent imprint.

Knew exactly which country you're talking about and don't even have to say the name. It's dystopian.

 

[Fadenself00_]

it's much worse than they deny euthanasia. they went far out of their way to make every gauranteed suicide method into a crime ,like Nembutal , sarco suicide pod, paying someone to shoot me in the head .

the only reason i can't pay someone to shoot me in the head is because these monsters made that a crime, they wrote laws to make it criminal . same for why can't i buy 2 bottles of Nembutal ? because they made someone selling Nembutal a crime : they put the one guy D from N from D into prison for selling nembutal .

they also put Dr. kevorkian in prison for assisting suicide

also Kenneth law for selling SN

and even some very old lady for making exit bags and selling them.

i can understand N not being freely available for anyone to just buy without any restrictions. But there should be a universal and individual-respecting way to request maid

 

[zam_zam]

i can understand N not being freely available for anyone to just buy without any restrictions. But there should be a universal and individual-respecting way to request maid

That's just an excuse govt wouldn't want people to have an easy way out that prevents the cattle from killing themselves.

 

[Fadenself00_]

That's just an excuse govt wouldn't want people to have an easy way out that prevents the cattle from killing themselves.

The reason certain substances are scheduled, isnt entirely just to protect the individual aquiring it, but also to protect others.