Venting Fuck PSH and hanging in general man! 😭😭😭.

[RadioGaga]

My set up works!!! AND! I found my sweet spot! It's partial hanging and after MONTHS AND MONTHS of trial and error I got it right! My whole body gets tingly every time and sometimes I'll feel lightheaded and dizzy! :). The problem? I get too scared and panic and immediately stand up and pull out! :(. How do I push past this?! :(. Because I won't lie it's too damn slow for me! :(. Like it's not instant lights out. I g

Edit: FUCK THIS SHIT MAN! I just tried again and holy fuck! Hell no! I was freaking out! I couldn't stand up like normal and take off the noose and I kept on thrashing around and I almost screamed!!! after a few AGONIZING seconds I FINALLY took the noose off! Yeah no fuck this shit! And now my stomach feels like shit! I'm going to puke!

My set up works but like it's just too damn scary!!! . :(.

 

[RottenSoul]

I understand what you mean. I am have also chosen hanging as my ctb method and i am afraid of that pain you describe, although i am going with fsh. You could try putting a cloth around your neck to ease the burning sensation from the rope or using a thicker one (because it's thicker the pressure will spread out and make it less painful). I any case i think psh is unreliable in general for the reason you described and also because you might stand up in a position where the rope is not constricting again and you wake up (your body will start twitching when you pass out) that's why i will be going with fsh if i end up ctbing.

 

[RadioGaga]

I understand what you mean. I am have also chosen hanging as my ctb method and i am afraid of that pain you describe, although i am going with fsh. You could try putting a cloth around your neck to ease the burning sensation from the rope or using a thicker one (because it's thicker the pressure will spread out and make it less painful). I any case i think psh is unreliable in general for the reason you described and also because you might stand up in a position where the rope is not constricting again and you wake up (your body will start twitching when you pass out) that's why i will be going with fsh if i end up ctbing.

No there was no pain. Only panic! It's not fun man. Your whole body goes all tingly and numb and you start to feel weak. The noose presses HARD against your neck. It's not painful but it's not comfortable either but again it's TERRIFYING when it happens! :(. . :(.

 

[RottenSoul]

No there was no pain. Only panic! It's not fun man. Your whole body goes all tingly and numb and you start to feel weak. The noose presses HARD against your neck. It's not painful but it's not comfortable either but again it's TERRIFYING when it happens! :(. . :(.

Then it's just your survival instinct working, your body won't just accept death, it will try the best it can to save itself. That's whet this panic sensation is and why you start twitching when you pass out but it might also mean that deep down you may not want to die yet and think you could be thinking that what your doing is a mistake. I don't know what your going through and how severe it is but I'm just saying.

 

[RadioGaga]

Then it's just your survival instinct working, your body won't just accept death, it will try the best it can to save itself. That's whet this panic sensation is and why you start twitching when you pass out but it might also mean that deep down you may not want to die yet and think you could be thinking that what your doing is a mistake. I don't know what your going through and how severe it is but I'm just saying.

Your right. I don't want to die. I'm just in an inescapable situation I CAN'T control. I lost EVERYTHING in my life and it's too painful to go on and I WANT to get better but the future isn't so certain for me anymore.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

My set up works!!! AND! I found my sweet spot! It's partial hanging and after MONTHS AND MONTHS of trial and error I got it right! My whole body gets tingly every time and sometimes I'll feel lightheaded and dizzy! :). The problem? I get too scared and panic and immediately stand up and pull out! :(. How do I push past this?! :(. Because I won't lie it's too damn slow for me! :(. Like it's not instant lights out. I g

Edit: FUCK THIS SHIT MAN! I just tried again and holy fuck! Hell no! I was freaking out! I couldn't stand up like normal and take off the noose and I kept on thrashing around and I almost screamed!!! after a few AGONIZING seconds I FINALLY took the noose off! Yeah no fuck this shit! And now my stomach feels like shit! I'm going to puke!

My set up works but like it's just too damn scary!!! . :(.

Well you did just try to kill yourself. What did you expect?

Death is not gentle when you become their plaything. Naw the first time is rough, rough and scary