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Leopard2023

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What about 20, 50 or 100? I'm about to order them.
 
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pyranha

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i'm sorry that you're in a position where you feel that you must consider this as an option. i wish things were better for you. to answer your question, and i say this with kindness, that's not exactly how it works. even if you found a way to gather/buy enough and ingested them all without throwing it back up or some other such issue, the chances are still kind of slim, and you would more than likely just suffer in an incredibly agonizing fashion for hours upon days. it's not really something you should try because the probability that you end up in horrific pain for a while is the most likely outcome. i hope something good happens to you this week and i wish you didn't have to suffer to the point of considering poison
 
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Leopard2023

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i'm sorry that you're in a position where you feel that you must consider this as an option. i wish things were better for you. to answer your question, and i say this with kindness, that's not exactly how it works. even if you found a way to gather/buy enough and ingested them all without throwing it back up or some other such issue, the chances are still kind of slim, and you would more than likely just suffer in an incredibly agonizing fashion for hours upon days. it's not really something you should try because the probability that you end up in horrific pain for a while is the most likely outcome. i hope something good happens to you this week and i wish you didn't have to suffer to the point of considering poison
What kind of horrific pain do you mean? Unfortunately I don't know what else to do
 
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pyranha

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i'm not trying to sound graphic but poison overall is a very, very painful way to go, if it even manages to kill you in the first place. but the yew tree in specific- i mean, it'd be a culmination of every system in your body having a horrible time all at once. you'd likely end up with several things happening together, including but not limited to: consistent bowel movements that you cannot control, extreme hallucinations, neurological damage that could cause seizures in the moment, all sorts of reactions from your heart which are by themselves terrifying and painful in their own right, constant vomiting (and i need you to understand that what happens at the lower half of the body can happen to the upper half. you could, quite literally, vomit excrement), and more

i'm not comfortable giving tips on how to CTB, so i am sorry but i can't give you a better alternative. i do, however, need you to understand that what you're considering is perhaps one of the worst things you could do to yourself. you will suffer in a way you cannot possibly imagine. please do not try this method
 
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Leopard2023

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Sep 24, 2023
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i'm not trying to sound graphic but poison overall is a very, very painful way to go, if it even manages to kill you in the first place. but the yew tree in specific- i mean, it'd be a culmination of every system in your body having a horrible time all at once. you'd likely end up with several things happening together, including but not limited to: consistent bowel movements that you cannot control, extreme hallucinations, neurological damage that could cause seizures in the moment, all sorts of reactions from your heart which are by themselves terrifying and painful in their own right, constant vomiting (and i need you to understand that what happens at the lower half of the body can happen to the upper half. you could, quite literally, vomit excrement), and more

i'm not comfortable giving tips on how to CTB, so i am sorry but i can't give you a better alternative. i do, however, need you to understand that what you're considering is perhaps one of the worst things you could do to yourself. you will suffer in a way you cannot possibly imagine. please do not try this method
"neurological damage that could cause seizures"

I hope you don't mean a stroke
 
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pyranha

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Mar 9, 2025
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i do not, neurological damage is a general term for many different conditions. the point i was trying to get across is while all that other horrible stuff is happening, you could also have who knows how many seizures due to whatever neurological damage occurs from the ingestion. this would only add to the terror and leave you with even more long-term damage
 

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