
lostangel
Enlightened
- Mar 22, 2019
- 1,051
I don't want death, a dog, a loving mom, good mental health or anything like that all I want is freedom.
I'm not just talking about physical freedom I'm talking about mental freedom.
Physical freedom: Nothing is more valuable than doing what you want (without being a danger to others) and doing it for yourself. You have no-one stopping you physically or verbally putting you down. I wish I could smoke some weed or DMT or do something harmless without being humiliated or attacked verbally. I wish I could end my life without anyone trying to make me suffer. I wish for something that should be a part of life but is not.
Mental freedom: Mental freedom is something else entirely it's being able to do something without the fear of anything. It's being free of abuse, trauma, insecurities and other negative emotions. It's completely letting go of everything. Not craving love, affection or intimacy. It's something I would literally kill for.
Suicide seems the only way to achieve some of this. I'm mourning the loss of my childhood. I can't get over myself. My ''ego'' wants affection and unconditional love but I simply want to be free from the craving of that.
If there is a creator I firmly believe he did intend life to be lived in this way.
I'm not just talking about physical freedom I'm talking about mental freedom.
Physical freedom: Nothing is more valuable than doing what you want (without being a danger to others) and doing it for yourself. You have no-one stopping you physically or verbally putting you down. I wish I could smoke some weed or DMT or do something harmless without being humiliated or attacked verbally. I wish I could end my life without anyone trying to make me suffer. I wish for something that should be a part of life but is not.
Mental freedom: Mental freedom is something else entirely it's being able to do something without the fear of anything. It's being free of abuse, trauma, insecurities and other negative emotions. It's completely letting go of everything. Not craving love, affection or intimacy. It's something I would literally kill for.
Suicide seems the only way to achieve some of this. I'm mourning the loss of my childhood. I can't get over myself. My ''ego'' wants affection and unconditional love but I simply want to be free from the craving of that.
If there is a creator I firmly believe he did intend life to be lived in this way.