Found my method

[imdoneigiveup]

I have decided to go with Caffeine od in combination with bupropion OD, pseudoephedrine OD, and nicotine OD.

My plan is to take the caffeine in powder form all in one drink 14g. Take anti nausea meds, and a few anxiety meds to reduce the time before vomiting kicks in. Take the other meds, then put a bunch of pouches in.

I will go somewhere remote where no one can find me so I cannot be saved or reach help in my state of panic.

I just cannot seem to achieve any other method and the sn method seems impossible. I dont know where to get it and realistically only have 8 days left until I have to CTB.


I understand that it will probably be a very painful fear filled death. But I've played with this idea for so long and made many attempts and I realized there is truly no such thing as one that's not to some extent. I physically cannot take being around anymore, my life has fallen apart to an absolutely unfixable state. I have stuck around for the last year just to test the waters and see if there is any possible way forward that isn't filled with suffering pain and misery.


I will be collecting everything over the next few days, then committing hopefully on the 15th. I'm here to answer any questions, or address any I'm stupid comments. I welcome any reasonable criticisms or suggestions that help achieve my goal. Telling me I'm an idiot just for the sake of telling me will be ignored. I already know lol

 

[weirdworld]

I'm sorry but this is a very bad plan. Caffeine is one of the least effective methods you could have chosen, you are basically banking on having a heart attack which will be incredibly painful and could easily fail . Obviously I hope you reconsider CTB, but pretty much every method from partial hanging to jumping is better than caffeine.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I agree with @weirdworld, this sounds like something that should be listed on the "non methods not to attempt" thread, if it isn't there already. I'd check the resource compilation guide again for a viable method.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find freedom from suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[imdoneigiveup]

I'm sorry but this is a very bad plan. Caffeine is one of the least effective methods you could have chosen, you are basically banking on having a heart attack which will be incredibly painful and could easily fail . Obviously I hope you reconsider CTB, but pretty much every method from partial hanging to jumping is better than caffeine.

Seizures+heart failure was the hope and it's guaranteed from what I've researched. That's why the mixture because they stack on top of each other and increase the risk.

I have no where high enough to jump from and have attempted hanging. Partial/night night many times. Never able to get it right. Full suspension might be an option because it's harder to back out but I have toyed with it so long I'm tired of trying it. Everything else costs too much or is unavailable for me.