Found a place I can do it at night

[heylightiforgot]

I guess those following my story know that -- aside from having the balls to attempt -- one big issue has been that I live with my family in a small house and am basically under constant watch, since my mom also works from home. This has made figuring out timing difficult.

There's an abandoned house across the road that's locked/inaccessible. However, I went to scout around today and there's an old abandoned car in the outdoor parking garage that's not locked. So while ideally I wanted to ingest SN in the comfort of my own bed, if I wanted to do it at night, I suppose I could sit in the car? Based on timing with my meals etc. it would be 2/3am, so I imagine I wouldn't be disturbed for a while, as long as no one saw me go there.

 

[ChristopherWalken]

That sounds ok. I hate that you're having to sneak around to do this but it is what it is. Somewhat poetic that an old car gets to take someone for one last journey.

 

[heylightiforgot]

That sounds ok. I hate that you're having to sneak around to do this but it is what it is. Somewhat poetic that an old car gets to take someone for one last journey.

yeah it's frustrating .. that I can't even do it in the comfort of my own room; an old disused car at night seems so grungy and maybe a little unnerving too.

 

[Eurus]

You got some balls,I'm glad you were able to find a place tho.i kept trying to mention a place in your home,I did not even think about being outside.you can do this,I believe in you

 

[heylightiforgot]

You got some balls,I'm glad you were able to find a place tho.i kept trying to mention a place in your home,I did not even think about being outside.you can do this,I believe in you

Lol I really don't have balls. Anyone with my awful existence would have had the courage to end it by now. I keep hanging on because I'm a coward

 

[Eurus]

I doubt that

 

[heylightiforgot]

Ugh, it's summer at the moment. Just went back to scout the location now and it's disgusting :( flies everywhere, maybe they won't be around at night? Other option is just to sit in the backyard or bushes, but there are adjoining fences belonging to the neighbour's houses, so worry I'd be heard.