Finally my time to CTB

[Rowan13]

I've been watching a mutual online who was in the same situation that I'm in struggle for some time now. Hoping and praying that they could get into a better situation, because if THEY could, then that meant I could, too.
Well today I found out that they decided to CTB.
They left a post to their followers explaining why they made the decisions they made. I completely understood, and reading that made me finally at peace.
I used to cry when I thought about CTB, because part of me still hoped that I could get through things. I didn't this time.
It was an empty, cold acceptance, but it made me slightly happy to think about.
I've decided to use the same blood pressure pills that I used for my first attempt. If it weren't for failing, I would have just fallen asleep and never woken up. I don't plan to fail this time.
The only thing I have to do is find homes for my animals.
Thank you to those who have been supportive.

 

[SVEN]

Sorry you find yourself in this position, however I totally get it. Every good wish for success in achieving what you seek.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best of luck.

 

[Lost_my_soul]

I've decided to use the same blood pressure pills that I used for my first attempt. If it weren't for failing, I would have just fallen asleep and never woken up. I don't plan to fail this time.

Are you sure this gonna work? Last time I overdosed I was unconscious and woke up in hospital after two days.

 

[pictures]

Wish you find peace

 

[randal_bond]

Sorry you have to go. Do you just faint with because of low pressure?

 

[day]

Wish you nothing but safe travels OP.

Best of luck with your plans, sorry the world has brought you to this point..

 

[crxssedho3]

I've been watching a mutual online who was in the same situation that I'm in struggle for some time now. Hoping and praying that they could get into a better situation, because if THEY could, then that meant I could, too.
Well today I found out that they decided to CTB.
They left a post to their followers explaining why they made the decisions they made. I completely understood, and reading that made me finally at peace.
I used to cry when I thought about CTB, because part of me still hoped that I could get through things. I didn't this time.
It was an empty, cold acceptance, but it made me slightly happy to think about.
I've decided to use the same blood pressure pills that I used for my first attempt. If it weren't for failing, I would have just fallen asleep and never woken up. I don't plan to fail this time.
The only thing I have to do is find homes for my animals.
Thank you to those who have been supportive.

OP have you ever thought that your situation was not word for word the same as your mutuals? I'm so sorry for your loss but remember just because they couldn't make something happen for themselves doesn't mean you can't, however if you truly feel this way and nothing brings you comfort safe travels

 

[Kundalini Guy]

Better luck next lifetime

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you peace and freedom from this horrible world.

 

[Ashe]

I'm wishing you the best and that you find your peace in the journey ahead.

 

[Rowan13]

Are you sure this gonna work? Last time I overdosed I was unconscious and woke up in hospital after two days.

I think it should. My resting blood pressure is already naturally low enough to set off emergency alarms.

Sorry you have to go. Do you just faint with because of low pressure?

You get really sleepy first, so you can lay down and go to sleep. If you take enough, your blood pressure should get low enough for your brain, heart, and organs to not get the needed blood and oxygen.