GirlOfThought06
autistic by the grace of god
- Nov 10, 2025
- 28
After a year of seeking diagnosis, my therapist said I have C-PTSD. I checked to ensure he was able to give a diagnosis, which he was. It feels both like a relief and also a bit frustrating.
It's nice that I have a name to the metaphorical face, but it feels like my life's sort of over before it's begun. I know I have some trauma related to social settings, and I've tried to exposure therapy my way through it— but I failed every time because I just relied on myself and myself alone
I don't really know what's next— I'll never really get anything but it's nice knowing that my problems exist and it's not just me being "dramatic" like my mother claims. She'll never apologize for her part in my trauma which sucks but that's just life. Hopefully things get better, or at least trend up. I'll have to fight the beast of "wanting to prove I'm sick, so I get worse"again someday, but either way
It's nice that I have a name to the metaphorical face, but it feels like my life's sort of over before it's begun. I know I have some trauma related to social settings, and I've tried to exposure therapy my way through it— but I failed every time because I just relied on myself and myself alone
I don't really know what's next— I'll never really get anything but it's nice knowing that my problems exist and it's not just me being "dramatic" like my mother claims. She'll never apologize for her part in my trauma which sucks but that's just life. Hopefully things get better, or at least trend up. I'll have to fight the beast of "wanting to prove I'm sick, so I get worse"again someday, but either way
