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UninformedLover

UninformedLover

"Don't mess with The Amazing Spider-Man!"
Nov 12, 2019
325
It's just so fucked that this is the only way to make the pain stop. Can't say I've never tried. I have. Multiple times. I've had therapists, took medication, was employed, unemployed and just relaxed, went to college, talked about my feelings...and its just the same results no matter what.

I can never get what I want and I'm not even asking for much. Fuck.

Why should I have to kill myself in order to feel better like ts is not fair at all.
 
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persepexa

Member
Feb 7, 2025
65
I feel the exact same. My family has so many suggestions for me to improve my life and 9 times out of 10 it's stuff I've already done. They want me on meds, I was on meds for years. They want me to see someone, was in a mental hospital with psychologists for over a year followed by a year with the community mental health team. They want me to get a job I've been applying ever since I got out of hospital. They want me to look for support groups, I've been in them. At this point I just feel out of options. I agree it's really fucked up when CTB feels like the only option left.
 
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Off_Switch

Student
Aug 15, 2025
144
If you've put forth an honest effort to no avail, you can hang your head high (no pun intended, or maybe it was intended) and CTB with pride.
 
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UninformedLover

UninformedLover

"Don't mess with The Amazing Spider-Man!"
Nov 12, 2019
325
What do you want?
I really just want to be happy and live a life that fills fulfilled and has meaning and purpose yk?

But specifically I just want a good job, financial stability and a girlfriend (who'll later become my wife) and to get away from my parents forever. But it's just really hard. Theres just a sea of never ending roadblocks. I cant...
 
LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Pray for my release
Jul 23, 2022
4,491
I really just want to be happy and live a life that fills fulfilled and has meaning and purpose yk?

But specifically I just want a good job, financial stability and a girlfriend (who'll later become my wife) and to get away from my parents forever. But it's just really hard. Theres just a sea of never ending roadblocks. I cant...
Generally it's just one step at a time. Financial stability would help attract a partner so maybe focus on that.
 
Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

Wizard
Mar 28, 2025
633
Yeah, this is how I feel. As a matter of fact, I was crying about this just now. If I wasn't in so much physical pain, I wouldn't be on this site trying to off myself. . .
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
100
I feel the same way. It's not just death of me, but all of my hopes ans dreams. I already know that there is nothing I can do to fix my life, but there is something inside me that still wants to cry when I think of dying.
 

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