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Mar 2, 2026
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I hate my body so much. I feel like I'm a man that wants to be a woman. God just wanted to create a man but halfway through told the angels like "lol, let's make him a woman". I fucking hate my body. I'm so cooked. In all aspects.
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This except I feel like I'm a woman who wants to be a man. Gender Dysphoria truly is a special breed of hell :)
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This except I feel like I'm a woman who wants to be a man. Gender Dysphoria truly is a special breed of hell :)
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I'm so sorry... I don't have gender dysphoria. More like body dysmorphia. But I'm curious about whether I can have gender dysphoria because I'm a woman but I feel too masculine, look too masculine, some men are more feminine and curvy than me. Wonder if that dissatisfaction can be something similar. I freaking hate my body and getting rid of it won't change anything. I can only feel pity towards any man who'd have to date me. So why bother? Today's ophthalmologist. If my eyes aren't cooked, maybe I'll live a little. If i have detachment - les gooooo ☺️🔫
I'm so sorry... I don't have gender dysphoria. More like body dysmorphia. But I'm curious about whether I can have gender dysphoria because I'm a woman but I feel too masculine, look too masculine, some men are more feminine and curvy than me. Wonder if that dissatisfaction can be something similar. I freaking hate my body and getting rid of it won't change anything. I can only feel pity towards any man who'd have to date me. So why bother? Today's ophthalmologist. If my eyes aren't cooked, maybe I'll live a little. If i have detachment - les gooooo ☺️🔫
This shit actually has so many levels. I am a woman myself, and I feel othered. I feel inferior. And because of it I feel like I'm sexist. Because I have a certain look if like to have. Slightly shorter, curvier yada yada yada. And I'd like to have experiences women have. I have literally zero experiences that can differentiate me from a man except for my period. Zero. And I feel like that version of femininity, socialization and relationship that I want are unattainable. And something that's embarrassing to want as a... womanlet? Lmao. And sexist. As if it's the only version of femininity. But I don't want any other version. I don't want to be "statuesque" or androgynous. That makes me want to crawl out of my skin.
 
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I'm so sorry... I don't have gender dysphoria. More like body dysmorphia. But I'm curious about whether I can have gender dysphoria because I'm a woman but I feel too masculine, look too masculine, some men are more feminine and curvy than me. Wonder if that dissatisfaction can be something similar. I freaking hate my body and getting rid of it won't change anything. I can only feel pity towards any man who'd have to date me. So why bother? Today's ophthalmologist. If my eyes aren't cooked, maybe I'll live a little. If i have detachment - les gooooo ☺️🔫
Oh I see. I think what you're going through can still be qualified as gender dysphoria though, even if you're a cis woman who feels too masculine. I've seen posts on other sites where cis women share similar issues as yours and the trans community does qualify it as a similar experience. I'm sorry either way about how you're feeling though, no one should feel uncomfortable in their body 🫂
 
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Oh I see. I think what you're going through can still be qualified as gender dysphoria though, even if you're a cis woman who feels too masculine. I've seen posts on other sites where cis women share similar issues as yours and the trans community does qualify it as a similar experience. I'm sorry either way about how you're feeling though, no one should feel uncomfortable in their body 🫂
I feel so sorry for you too. This is hell. If this is only a fraction of how trans people feel... Life is so cruel.
I'd accept that I'm ugly. But it's either ugly, stupid or a bad person. Can't be all three, eh...🚬😔
 
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