Venting Feeling empty and apathetic about life

[T-T]

I feel like I care less and less about everything and everyone around me. Nothing seems to matter anymore, and I feel so empty and alone. I have no close friends and no one to talk to, and it's so hard to bear sometimes. I have a major assignment due tonight and I can't bring myself to even start it, it just feels so insignificant and unimportant. Everything just seems like too much effort, and for what? I want to get help, but I don't know how to open up to people, and my troubles seem so inconsequential why would anyone want to listen anyways. I've always felt like I'm viewing life from the second person, and when I'm with people I never feel like I belong. No one really wants to get to know me, and I blame myself, since there's nothing interesting about me anyways, and it's not like I'm trying that hard either. I put on this happy facade and act like I care about people and try to seem like a nice person, but really inside I just feel nothing. I feel like I'm rarely actually happy anymore, and I do things just to please the people around me. Sometimes I feel like I'm living only because it'd be too much effort to try to kill myself. If only dying was as easy as going to sleep and wishing to never wake up again.

 

[daley]

I feel like I care less and less about everything and everyone around me. Nothing seems to matter anymore, and I feel so empty and alone. I have no close friends and no one to talk to, and it's so hard to bear sometimes. I have a major assignment due tonight and I can't bring myself to even start it, it just feels so insignificant and unimportant. Everything just seems like too much effort, and for what? I want to get help, but I don't know how to open up to people, and my troubles seem so inconsequential why would anyone want to listen anyways. I've always felt like I'm viewing life from the second person, and when I'm with people I never feel like I belong. No one really wants to get to know me, and I blame myself, since there's nothing interesting about me anyways, and it's not like I'm trying that hard either. I put on this happy facade and act like I care about people and try to seem like a nice person, but really inside I just feel nothing. I feel like I'm rarely actually happy anymore, and I do things just to please the people around me. Sometimes I feel like I'm living only because it'd be too much effort to try to kill myself. If only dying was as easy as going to sleep and wishing to never wake up again.

Sorry to hear that.

I have had major procrastination problems. So just regarding the assignment you have for today,
try to think about the smallest action that can make some progress on the assignment. It could
be just opening a notebook, or rereading the assignment statement.
Don't commit to anything else yet. That usually works for me, at least a bit. I might get enough
energy to continue working on whatever I need to.