Feeling bad about hurting my mother

[Parnate]

So yesterday my mother was unnecessarily yelling at my father. She very was abusive to me as a kid. I had lot of pent up anger and trauma. I yesterday I got into their argument and yelled at her . Later we both started arguing. She is upset since then and not talking to me. I am feeling so bad for doing all this. I wish I hadn't done it , but I lack self control.
She didn't even cook for me today.

 

[m1v]

I'm sorry you had to endure that, it's so unfair. I don't think you did anything wrong here. But what if you talked to her first? She's probably waiting for an apology or something similar i suppose. Whenever that happens with my mother i try talking to her about things she actually cares about, like our cat. Then she kinda forgets about the argument. Sending you big hugs

 

[SASU-KE]

She didn't even cook for me today.

That's unacceptable. So you're saying she cooked for your entire family but didn't make your portion alone?