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sadidiot0328

sadidiot0328

I feel like I died long ago
Jun 1, 2023
106
For my entire life, It always seems like I struggle to relate to anyone during conversations or talk to them with ease. Even when we're all venting together, I feel like I'm the odd one out. Even when I was younger, it seemed like everyone knew what to say and I just didn't. It feels like everyone else learned something along the way but I didn't pick up on it. I don't know how to converse with my peers, nor do I know how to relate to them in the slightest. I'm afraid I'll always be alone because I just can't easily connect with someone. I wish I was normal. I hate being different. Even if it's "lame", I would at least have some friends in real life.
 
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Lulzacruel

Lulzacruel

Specialist
Jun 13, 2023
336
as somebody who is schizotypal, i feel you

i dont view my schizotypal as bad per se but i wish that people would stop glancing at me all the time. i get told i dress like mr.robot a lot lol
 
MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
Every time I try to vent they think I'm a bitch or a pussy, I can't vent without being scared
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,250
I've certainly never been able to relate to anyone, I just think that not everyone is meant to exist here but I personally could never wish to anyway. But I do get that loneliness is painful for so many who exist here, it must be tiring feeling trapped in that situation, existence is too cruel and I find it awful how there is so much unnecessary suffering in this world.
 
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Baron

Baron

Is there a meaning to anything?
Jun 29, 2023
115
I can relate to you. I'm always the awkward guy, don't know what to talk about and how to talk about things. I've basically been a shut in for several years and I didn't experience shit. I don't even feel like I'm alive.
 
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CountOfTuscany

CountOfTuscany

Member
Sep 11, 2021
42
For my entire life, It always seems like I struggle to relate to anyone during conversations or talk to them with ease. Even when we're all venting together, I feel like I'm the odd one out. Even when I was younger, it seemed like everyone knew what to say and I just didn't. It feels like everyone else learned something along the way but I didn't pick up on it. I don't know how to converse with my peers, nor do I know how to relate to them in the slightest. I'm afraid I'll always be alone because I just can't easily connect with someone. I wish I was normal. I hate being different. Even if it's "lame", I would at least have some friends in real life.
I get this feeling too, and until I was about 18, I was in a less severe version of your situation. I know this social isolation feels like an impossible mountain to climb now, but I believe in you. One thing you have going for you is that social skills can be practiced. You might need to step outside your comfort zone a bit and put yourself in a wider variety of situations, but you can do this. Go do some silly hobby where other people hang out. Let the hobby provide you with a common interest with which to start conversations. For me, it was badminton of all things!
 
PyramidHead

PyramidHead

Member
Apr 27, 2023
40
I feel you. I've felt alien all my life, I could never relate with others, even as far back as when I was 5-6 years old. Always the grumpy/awkward/odd kid. Was never able to make the first move in friendships or strike conversations with anyone. Anything I struggle with seems so normal to others, I'm as dysfunctional as it gets.

Wanted to share my experience so you know you're not alone