Feel better as I get closer.

[Ark]

I am getting close to my day to CTB. And what is interesting is the more I think about each day being behind me, and one day less to be there, the better I feel. I know it is what I need but never would have thought that just knowing I am getting closer and closer would actually be somewhat calming and reassuring.

 

[Rena rossy]

Definetly understand that feeling, I started crying less since I set a date. It is kind of relaxing

 

[Schadenfreude]

Same. :)

 

[HereToday]

Me too. I don't feel as depressed anymore because I know it will all be over soon. Strange but liberating feeling

 

[FullyUnplugged]

yea knowing it will all be over soon is making it easier, just hope I have time to finish this anime

 

[Meant2Die]

Its just so odd to be waiting and having to find new things to occupy my time... I'm soaking up every good moment I can, but at the same time I'm restless b/c I just want to be done with the act of it.

 

[Nemeshisu]

Accepting Death can be liberating. I feel strangely peaceful too. It's just like with reading a book. I am more grateful that this story will be finally over with every day that I get closer to the ending.

 

[Moonicide]

It's funny, because I feel like I've been doing so much more now that my time is near. I've had decent days and some pretty bad days, which makes the lines blurry for me when it comes to ctbing at times. But ultimately I'm set on my decision and I am at peace with it... I don't dread it. I look forward to it. And I've met some lovely people on here too. I'll be passing away with so much love and I am so grateful.