fearing pain again

[Jon Arbuckle]

Starting to have doubts about ever being able to CTB. I wanted to go via firearm since it seems like any pain will be brief and instantaneous but I'm starting to have second thoughts. even if I shoot the right place what if I stay conscious for a few seconds of agony? same with jumping but that's even worse.
even something more "peaceful" like SN, it works by starving your body of oxygen, i'm scared I'd feel breathless and like I'm drowning.
I'm just scared right now. somehow the idea of CTB has soothed me lately? like the idea that it'll be over soon. now I feel like I don't know what to do anymore.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I feel the same way. Especially because I don't really have a choice. Like really, really don't have a choice.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

SI is a bitch. That's why before trying any other method, I personally am going to go out of my way to try to find N. Because with N you just fall asleep in a few minutes and pass in your sleep. If I fail to find N, I'll be making a post similar to this one lol.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's understandable fearing that, I personally wish to never feel any pain again, I just want peace. But anyway I wish you all the best.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Does "natural death" have any less potential to produce pain at the moment of death?

 

[cosmosis]

Does "natural death" have any less potential to produce pain at the moment of death?

This is a good question, I have always wondered this myself