Farewell Thread

[bigj75]

Method: SN and DMSO
Reason: Health and Depression

I got all my stuff delivered sooner than expected. I thought once I had everything I would feel like living life a bit longer and then ctb'ing but now realizing I have everything now I feel an urge to get it over with. I'll be doing it this Sunday. I appreciate the resources and encouragement yall provided me. I wish you all a peaceful exit. I'll be keeping updates here until the final moments on this Sunday.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Well wishes to you on your journey. x We will be here for you.

 

[Jean4]

Sending you love. I'll be here on Sunday for you.

 

[Meant2Die]

After seeing how seemingly easily (I'm sure it actually wasn't) and composed @trynactb just did hers SN departure (assuming she did succeed) I'm about to order some Meto and SN tonight myself.

Good luck to you and I'll also be here on Sunday. Are you doing the 48h or stat route?

 

[Stan]

Hoping for a smooth journey for you.

 

[blueming]

Good luck for Sunday, I hope everything goes well! Wishing you a safe journey ^^

 

[bigj75]

After seeing how seemingly easily (I'm sure it actually wasn't) and composed @trynactb just did hers SN departure (assuming she did succeed) I'm about to order some Meto and SN tonight myself.

Good luck to you and I'll also be here on Sunday. Are you doing the 48h or stat route?

What the issue with it seems to be is taste and if someone finds you right after drinking. I heard you can use an enema to avoid taste but I'm not sure how comfortable I am doing that. I think I'll go to a hotel and keep to myself with the do not disturb sign so I don't have to worry about anyone finding me. I'm doing 48 hours. I'll start fasting tomorrow.

 

[Lethe]

Sorry it had to come to this, hope everything goes well for you no matter what decision you make. May I ask why you chose DMSO as the solvent? I've seen it mentioned a few times around here but never heard what the benefit is.

 

[Stan]

What the issue with it seems to be is taste and if someone finds you right after drinking. I heard you can use an enema to avoid taste but I'm not sure how comfortable I am doing that. I think I'll go to a hotel and keep to myself with the do not disturb sign so I don't have to worry about anyone finding me. I'm doing 48 hours. I'll start fasting tomorrow.

remember you only need to fast for 8 hours at the maximum.

 

[bigj75]

remember you only need to fast for 8 hours at the maximum.

Oh i was mistaken. thought fasting had to be for 48 hours.

 

[Stan]

Oh i was mistaken. thought fasting had to be for 48 hours.

No - only 8 hours prior to you drinking SN. Then I suggest no liquid for 2 hours prior - except washing down the tablets.

 

[bigj75]

Sorry it had to come to this, hope everything goes well for you no matter what decision you make. May I ask why you chose DMSO as the solvent? I've seen it mentioned a few times around here but never heard what the benefit is.

It eliminates the need for antiemetic. it can be applied on the body and absorbsoul into the blood stream. it speeds up the process ontop of drinking it. it's basically a easy way cause it requires less ingredients to ctb with.

 

[Meant2Die]

What the issue with it seems to be is taste and if someone finds you right after drinking. I heard you can use an enema to avoid taste but I'm not sure how comfortable I am doing that. I think I'll go to a hotel and keep to myself with the do not disturb sign so I don't have to worry about anyone finding me. I'm doing 48 hours. I'll start fasting tomorrow.

Yes, the vomiting and early discovery. BAD.

So I've only saw the enema being mentioned on this forum while randomly reading SN threads. Is there an actual source in any of the books about that? It peaked my interest bec due to my chronic health condition I am very familiar with doing coffee enemas. In fact for a number of years I did one almost Every day. I do know things can be easily absorbed by the rectum, that's why they even make some medicines available through suppositories for kids especially who fuss about swallowing pills. But administering SN that way...I just don't think it would 1) absorb fast enough or 2)that you'd be able to hold it in. I'm bad at chemistry but I understand the sodium part of sodium nitrite means it's very salty, as verified by people explaining the taste. In that case it MIGHT be pretty hard to hold in. I've considered myself an experienced coffee enema holder as I've done it for years without problems. You get used the feeling of wanting to purge that occurs when you first try them. Well anyway, thinking I was this expert at holding it in, when it came to doing a salt enema (for parasite removal) I thought I'd have no problem. WRONG! I couldn't hold it in for more than a few seconds without my rectum spasming and basically my bowels emptying out as much as I tried to hold it in [i know sorry, graphic]. I tried multiple times after with almost the same results. Very hard to hold in the salt enema which is basically a lot of salt mixed with water, whereas I've held coffee enemas up to an hour with no problems. So idk, maybe the SN just isn't as salty...


Also, sorry I just want to understand, bc you're taking the dmso does that mean you're not taking an antiemetic?

 

[Stan]

You are not drinking the DMSO are you?

 

[deathbyginger]

You are not drinking the DMSO are you?

Agreed. If you're planning on using DMSO, you're better off applying it to your skin. There was one study I read (I could probably find it again if you wanted), that stated that there was no increase of absorption of solutes using DMSO. This study used pharmaceuticals as the test drug, but I don't see why this couldn't apply to SN.
You have a high chance of vomiting if you try drinking the DMSO cocktail without any anti-emetic

 

[Stan]

OP - can you share your full plan if you want. Concerned now as you believed it was a 48 hour fast

 

[Lethe]

Yeah DMSO is pretty nasty stuff, I wasn't sure if they were drinking it or what. Can't imagine it tasting very pleasant.

 

[okaoki]

good luck hope everything goes smoothly

 

[bigj75]

Also, sorry I just want to understand, bc you're taking the dmso does that mean you're not taking an antiemetic?

Yae you can rub it in your body so you don't have to drink it and even if you do drink it it supposedly doesn't make you sick.

Yeah DMSO is pretty nasty stuff, I wasn't sure if they were drinking it or what. Can't imagine it tasting very pleasant.

It supposedly taste like garlic but ive heard it doesn't make your stomach sick at all.

 

[littlelady774]

I don't know if I would use DMSO, there have been many botched attempts with that. Besides, the person that started that -Xerxes- was rumored to be a troll.
If I were you, I'd stick to the tried and true SN method of the PPeh.

Anyhow, I'm sorry you're at this point. I truly wish you the best with whatever decision you make, and hope you find peace.

 

[zeroambition]

I wish you a smooth journey and hope you find the peace you deserve

 

[woxihuanni]

Safe travels, catch up soon.

 

[Darkhaven]

May your road lead you to everlasting peace and tranquility.

 

[Stan]

Yae you can rub it in your body so you don't have to drink it and even if you do drink it it supposedly doesn't make you sick.

You might want to check that again. I do not know how much you are drinking but if you read up on DMSO one of the potential side effects is nausea.

 

[bigj75]

You might want to check that again. I do not know how much you are drinking but if you read up on DMSO one of the potential side effects is nausea.

I guess a antiemetic would help regardless. I should buy some. do you know a good place to get antiemetics?

 

[ReadyToMeetMyMaker]

I guess a antiemetic would help regardless. I should buy some. do you know a good place to get antiemetics?

Check Ebay for Meto. That's where i got mine from.

 

[Yaalya]

can you tell us your SN plan?

 

[bigj75]

ok better safe than sorry. I bought some Primperan (meto). I have been advised some people get sick from the DMSO and some don't so I have decided to buy the antiemetic first so I can assure myself I wont throw up and ruin my chance of ctb'ing. so I have to wait for it in the mail. hopefully it comes soon.

 

[WhiteDespair]

Method: SN and DMSO
Reason: Health and Depression

I got all my stuff delivered sooner than expected. I thought once I had everything I would feel like living life a bit longer and then ctb'ing but now realizing I have everything now I feel an urge to get it over with. I'll be doing it this Sunday. I appreciate the resources and encouragement yall provided me. I wish you all a peaceful exit. I'll be keeping updates here until the final moments on this Sunday.

Best wishes and safe travel on whichever road you happen to choose.

 

[bigj75]

can you tell us your SN plan?

I'll take the antiemetic. put my dmso and sn in a backpack. I'll head over to a hotel and take the sn and DMSO there. suicide in a property lowers value of the place you do it in and I live in a house with roommates. I don't want them to have to get put out and the house owner lose money because of me so it's best for me to do it in a hotel.

I don't know if I would use DMSO, there have been many botched attempts with that. Besides, the person that started that -Xerxes- was rumored to be a troll.
If I were you, I'd stick to the tried and true SN method of the PPeh.

Anyhow, I'm sorry you're at this point. I truly wish you the best with whatever decision you make, and hope you find peace.

That's crazy for someone to troll about this but I can't put it passed myself of someone doing that. so I'll take your consideration. I just bought meto.