I hate my family, both my dad and mom left me at around age 3 and I grew up with my other relatives. My dad is an alcoholic criminal who is in jail and my mom is neglectful with anger issues, my other relatives aren't far from this and for the most of my life they have kept me in isolation, at one point I haven't left the house for 3 years, I wasn't allowed basic hygiene and was overall neglected. No one at school saw it apparently and I was ostracized growing up, I'm now in high school and all of my classmates have hobbies they are good at expect me because I spend my life doing nothing, if you ask my parents my life was very good and normal, they don't see what they have been doing to me, they are my primary reason for thinking about killing myself. Recently my mother has tried re-entering my life because she's doing good economically, because of this I ask her a ton of money because I'm angry at her. I sometimes feel guilty because she doesn't understand how much I had to suffer throughout life because of them but then I realize they were 30 when they had me and weren't teenagers.
I don't have any easy suicide methods available, all of them are hard and painful, I feel tired all the time, I don't wanna be alive anymore, my family has drained me.
I don't have any easy suicide methods available, all of them are hard and painful, I feel tired all the time, I don't wanna be alive anymore, my family has drained me.
