Venting false hope false hope false hope and some more false hope

[maidens]

why is it that as soon as I get excited for something it's ripped from my hands? why is it that so many opportunities have been stolen from me? I can think of countless examples of this

if I have even the slightest amount of hope whatever I wanted will not happen or I won't get it. the more hopeful I am the more it hurts and if I don't let myself have any hope because I'll just be let down I still feel terrible. if there is a god I am nothing but his plaything and I know he is always laughing at me. even all the things I do get to have or experience come with a sacrifice or something ruins it. it's not fair at all

 

[Roseate]

I am so sorry it's not fair. Life can be such a bitch sometimes and hoping or holding on can be so hard. I understand exactly what you mean then people give you more false hope that doesn't pan out and somehow that makes it worse. There is never a right thing to say.

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

Exactly. I made a friend recently and they're going to likely have to move back because of immigration paperwork problems. Literally the first female friend I've had since high school. It has made me withdraw even more. It all ends anyway

 

[huntermellow]

why is it that as soon as I get excited for something it's ripped from my hands? why is it that so many opportunities have been stolen from me? I can think of countless examples of this

if I have even the slightest amount of hope whatever I wanted will not happen or I won't get it. the more hopeful I am the more it hurts and if I don't let myself have any hope because I'll just be let down I still feel terrible. if there is a god I am nothing but his plaything and I know he is always laughing at me. even all the things I do get to have or experience come with a sacrifice or something ruins it. it's not fair at all

i feel the exact same way. the one thing i was looking forward to this summer and got my hopes up about never ended up happening and now the situation is worse than it ever was…

 

[brokeandbroken]

why is it that as soon as I get excited for something it's ripped from my hands? why is it that so many opportunities have been stolen from me? I can think of countless examples of this

if I have even the slightest amount of hope whatever I wanted will not happen or I won't get it. the more hopeful I am the more it hurts and if I don't let myself have any hope because I'll just be let down I still feel terrible. if there is a god I am nothing but his plaything and I know he is always laughing at me. even all the things I do get to have or experience come with a sacrifice or something ruins it. it's not fair at all

Trust me I understand that completely.

 

[JaegerCA]

Yea, always thinking if there is a God he's just making us the butt of a shitty joke