instead of suicide I want to climb all the dangerous mountain i can until i die during the hike. Do you think its a good idea? I want to die but i don't want to commit suicide. I want the people around me think i die because of an accident and because I am a risk taker. I think its good for my self that I have pride left during my death and it won't make my family feel ashamed after i left. I have no purpose in my life anymore. I realised i loved extreme hobby and decided to put my life into it and wait till it kills me. I do not need to rush, i just let it happen even it will take years. i hate surprises but I am coward. I don't want to be responsible for my death. I want to blame it from circumstances and nature. to be honest i have above okay life (financially and overall) not by choice but by luck. there's something inside me that keeps coming up and I can't stop it. its sadness and i feel like it spreading not only into my whole being but also to the people i loved. i'm tired of fighting and tired of flowing in the cycle of everyday life. i just can't find the sense of staying and living anymore. when i leave i want to leave a smile from people who knows me. thats somehow its just me, passionately ticking goals of the mountains i want to climb but i didn't made it but at least i tried. i don't want to hurt them.
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
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that's gonna hurt. You gonna fall off or try to hike until you die of exhaustion?
Sidestep
Student
- Aug 15, 2018
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bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
simply put, yes. You really want a long painful death? that's why everyone on here wants a quick and painless method as possible.
If you can handle the pain :P There's a chance you won't die straight away, you'll probably be laying there with broken bones in pain for multiple days before you're either found or die.
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
i guess i'm a suicide noob. i don't really think about pain and suffering time. I guess i can endure long days of pain and suffering, well i'm gonna be dead anyway. Physical pain is nothing compare to giving pain to people who i left behind. what is a week of physical pain as long as i saved my face from the world of judgemental society. i guess i don't want to be known as the one who end him/herself
weedoge
Banned
- Jul 12, 2018
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It's not exactly the same but there was a suicide by a Japanese woman who did something pretty similar. She purposely got herself lost in the wilderness in Canada. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_of_Atsumi_Yoshikubo
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
weedoge
Banned
- Jul 12, 2018
- 1,525
Possibly but she set up the situation so that there was no other way and it worked, just thought OP might be interested.
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
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couldntthinkofaname
Mage
- Aug 31, 2018
- 565
"Accidental" deaths seem riskier to me. Airbags I'm cars etc are. I understand the appeal but personally my death won't be ambiguous at all
If you do go through with this, make sure you delete all traces of this site from your search history, password saver on iPhone, everything.
weedoge
Banned
- Jul 12, 2018
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Just curious does anyone else here plan to toss their hard drives for this reason? I'm on my pc a lot and my mother knows techy people so I'm afraid they'd find my conversations and stuff even though my hdds are encrypted.
