Venting Failed, failed, failed again

[c824767]

Tried with a belt on door hangar tried noose on. A tree broke the rope tried to od just paniced didnt pass out

passed out in the noose and came to after seconds. super frustrating. No idea how others complete. There must be a way but it eludes me.

 

[Ratbat]

passed out in the noose and came to after seconds. super frustrating. No idea how others complete. There must be a way but it eludes me.

Im considering starting a fight or dping some.kind of terrorist attack like set my slef on fire or something theres no poiny in creatin if u cant record the finished pieces just makes me.mad tb h

Im considering starting a fight or dping some.kind of terrorist attack like set my slef on fire or something theres no poiny in creatin if u cant record the finished pieces just makes me.mad tb h
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I guess some people are just deztined to never achieve what they want and just suffer a mundane existence trying to cope while al their peers achieve everything if.i cpuld.just sleep

 

[c824767]

Im considering starting a fight or dping some.kind of terrorist attack like set my slef on fire or something theres no poiny in creatin if u cant record the finished pieces just makes me.mad tb h

I am with you. a fake suicide vest to make an important point. somewhere where there is a hotbed of corruption. the headquarters of any bank in an off shore jurisdiction (switzerland?). A meeting of the MISES institute. the headquarters of a natural resource company that pollutes the environment. amazon warehouse?

 

[Ratbat]

I am with you. a fake suicide vest to make an important point. somewhere where there is a hotbed of corruption. the headquarters of any bank in an off shore jurisdiction (switzerland?). A meeting of the MISES institute. the headquarters of a natural resource company that pollutes the environment. amazon warehouse?

Yh spunds great but im too afraid to be fair be happy ro just sleep forever

 

[Manja]

You really do. I've tried roughly 30 times and failed.

This is like Myrphys Law...I mean people who want to live die ridiculously easy and when someone wants to die they just can't

 

[c824767]

This is like Myrphys Law...I mean people who want to live die ridiculously easy and when someone wants to die they just can't

Yes weird. Because I failed twice and when I looked at my journal and was shocked that I had these overbearing thoughts of self destruction, I decided I have to live because if I try again I will just fail and I am sick of failing and do not want to go into that cycle any more. But I would totally if I had to go back in time, would do ANYTHING in my power so I would NOT fail.

 

[ValideSultana]

Im considering starting a fight or dping some.kind of terrorist attack like set my slef on fire or something theres no poiny in creatin if u cant record the finished pieces just makes me.mad tb h

I understand where you're coming from, but don't go by self-immolation. I couldn't think of a more horrendous way to go. Please don't do that, I beg you. Your last bit of time on earth would be sheer agony.

 

[Ratbat]

I understand where you're coming from, but don't do self-immolation. I couldn't think of a more horrendous way to go. Please don't do that, I beg you. Your last bit of time on earth would be sheer agony.

I know it must be terrible but shaolin monks have done it tbh i dont care how i go just as long as i go preferably asleep cos i know if i try to live il get stabbed cos i live in a shit hole.

 

[ValideSultana]

I know it must be terrible but shaolin monks have done it tbh i dont care how i go just as long as i go preferably asleep cos i know if i try to live il get stabbed cos i live in a shit hole.

Well you certainly wouldn't be asleep through that, you'd be screaming in agony. Just because Shaolin monks have done it, doesn't mean you should. I'd rather be stabbed. Please, again, I beg you. Not that. Trust me, where I live is no picnic, either. There's plenty of third-world immigrants who scam, steal, beat, rape, kidnap, murder. I'm not saying they're all like that, but plenty of them are. They come here with nothing, and a year on they're wearing designer clothes, driving a Mercedes. A 70 year old lady was kidnapped by a gang of four just the other day, a few streets away from me.

 

[Ratbat]

Well you certainly wouldn't be asleep through that, you'd be screaming in agony. Just because Shaolin monks have done it, doesn't mean you should. I'd rather be stabbed. Please, again, I beg you. Not that. Trust me, where I live is no picnic, either. There's plenty of third-world immigrants who scam, steal, beat, rape, kidnap, murder. I'm not saying they're all like that, but plenty of them are. They come here with nothing, and a year on they're wearing designer clothes, driving a Mercedes. A 70 year old lady was kidnapped by a gang of four just the other day, a few streets away from me.

Yeah its a fucked up world i wont do it il probably die naturally anyway ...

 

[ValideSultana]

Yeah its a fucked up world i wont do it il probably die naturally anyway ...

I know you don't know me. I'm a 47yo walking female disaster. I'm here to talk, if you want. Okay, my friend?

 

[Ratbat]

I know you don't know me. I'm a 47yo walking female disaster. I'm here to talk, if you want. Okay, my friend?

Thats ok thanks for talkin i dont like to talk to my family anymore cos its too much forthem to deal with plus cos they have never felt like it they dont take to well tp what i say

 

[ValideSultana]

Thats ok thanks for talkin i dont like to talk to my family anymore cos its too much forthem to deal with plus cos they have never felt like it they dont take to well tp what i say

I completely get it! I'm in exactly the same situation with my family.

 

[Manja]

Shaolin monks lol...but I've heard something also interesting...I don't know if that's about Shaolin monks or something else but it's from East. When they want to die, they do Hara-Kiri they put the blade in the Hara, that's a place below belly button and they say it doesn't hurt a bit.
I personally wouldn't dare to try but there's a thought...

 

[ValideSultana]

Shaolin monks lol...but I've heard something also interesting...I don't know if that's about Shaolin monks or something else but it's from East. When they want to die, they do Hara-Kiri they put the blade in the Hara, that's a place below belly button and they say it doesn't hurt a bit.
I personally wouldn't dare to try but there's a thought...

You know they gotta be bullshitting when they say "It doesn't hurt a bit"!

 

[Manja]

I wouldn't know about that...Hara is a funny place...anything is possible there

 

[LookingGlassOfSorrow]

There is this movie where a woman has a shotgun connected to the door knob, a hangman's noose , a gas stove putting out propane, a molotov coctail to ignite the gas, poison to drink and a bunch of pills. At the last moment she screams for her husband, he opens the door, the shotgun destroys the hangman's noose, the poisonous drink falls from her hands, extinguishes the molotov cocktail, she falls down and the pills fall out of her mouth, go figure. fail fail fail. endure? recover? enjoy? get old, be eligible for assisted death ???????

I am so sorry and I have so much empathy for you.