Venting Failed attempt.

[Homulily]

I tried to get hit with a train last night however some random women approached me and continued trying to get me off the train tracks.
I tried ignoring her but I was scared she'd try to tall the police so I left.

I'm miserable and don't know what to do now.
I want some sort of peace so badly.

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

Man I think my SI would kick in well before the train was near me. If this is your method of choice I'd definitely choose a more secluded area for something like this. Sorry things didn't go to plan though. I'm sure that's beyond frustrating.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the peace from the suffering you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[Homulily]

Man I think my SI would kick in well before the train was near me. If this is your method of choice I'd definitely choose a more secluded area for something like this. Sorry things didn't go to plan though. I'm sure that's beyond frustrating.

I would of preferred a different method but I was desperate for release. I needed to try something even if it wasn't ideal.

I hope you find the peace from the suffering you search for, I wish you the best.

Thank you.

 

[onelastcall]

Lol reminds me of the time I was sitting at the station waiting for the last train just for a woman and her little kids to show up. Kinda made me give up trying with that method. Also I think people should not be exposed to any kind of trauma (watching someone get ripped apart).

 

[Homulily]

I don't have money for sn and I don't have access to a large building, I don't have access to firearms i don't have access to much.

Lol reminds me of the time I was sitting at the station waiting for the last train just for a woman and her little kids to show up. Kinda made me give up on trying on that method. Also I think people should not be exposed to any kind of trauma (watching someone get ripped apart).

If I had access to another method at the time then I would of attempted it instead.
Train was my last resort.

 

[onelastcall]

I don't have money for sn and I don't have access to a large building, I don't have access to firearms i don't have access to much.

If I had access to another method at the time then I would of attempted it instead.
Train was my last resort.

I understand your situation and I am sorry. And I am not saying this to diminish your pain, I have read of people getting run over by train and usually it's more of a desperate attempt which can lead to failures. You really need that idgaf mentality to go that way. Whatever you are going through I hope you either get better or find some kind of peace. Don't get yourself hurt for no gain.

 

[Homulily]

I understand your situation and I am sorry. And I am not saying this to diminish your pain, I have read of people getting run over by train and usually it's more of a desperate attempt which can lead to failures. You really need that idgaf mentality to go that way. Whatever you are going through I hope you either get better or find some kind of peace. Don't get yourself hurt for no gain.

I have a revised version of the plan involving the train involves staying up for 24 hours ahead of time.
Sleeping medication.
Remote part of the train tracks where the train should have some good speed that will also be away from random passerbys