Xerxes
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- Nov 8, 2018
- 936
Hello guys, long time no see!
So I carried out an experiment with DMSO and SN, and almost killed myself, but because it was an experiment and I didn't want to die, I drove myself to the ER and nurses told me I passed out at the entrance. Don't remember much after that other than what my wife and staff told me when I came to. I didn't dream, I didn't experience any NDE's, just darkness, and just a light switch, I wake up. I was in the ICU for a week, then moved to recovery unit for a few days, and then was discharged on Thursday.
Didn't get admitted to the mental ward because the doctors knew it was DMSO and that something I touched which caused Methemoglobinemia in my blood. I didn't tell them anything about SN, even though I slathered the DMSO/SN solution on my skin and drank a small dose of it. So it could've been anything and they counteracted the condition with Methylene Blue. They said my methemoglobinemia levels were 34% which can be fatal. anything over 40% is fatal, but because my blood is anemic, the reaction was much swifter and it almost was fatal hence the longer stay in the ICU for monitoring purposes.
So the experiment, luckily I wrote it down on a sticky note of my ingredients and dosages to pass on in the DMSO resource thread. I mixed 10g of SN with 50mL of DMSO and applied to my arms and chest area, it smelled like garlic, so I did a couple of drops of this olive oil essence I have to make it smell like Lightly smelling garlic Brut Cologne. I wrote that I didn't feel anything for 10 minutes. So lets kick it up a bit. I mixed 5g of SN with 25mL of DMSO in a small tea cup, dissolved it, then drank the mixture. I wrote it tasted like garlic and hot dogs, kinda burning like tabasco sauce or heavily seasoned food in the back of my throat. I don't know which happened first either the SN kicked in my blood stream from the skin application because I started feeling dizzy, kinda drowsy, and was thinking "Oh shit, the SN i drank gonna kick in soon, must get to ER". Ever drove drunk in the daytime with the afternoon sun in your eyes? It royally sucks, but I made it without any incidents on the road. Risky? Yes. Dumb as hell. You bet.
So how do I feel? I get periodic chest pains when I do some exertion, I haven't tried riding my bike, and going up stairs and any walking gets me a bit winded. I'm on iron pills and have an appointment to get oxygen treatment for the next 2 weeks. An interesting thing is, my will to die has been reduced significantly. I feel a bit smarter, more calmer, my wife scared as hell but she stayed by my side the entire time which really meant a lot. I shared my jello with her in the recovery unit. We still argued when I got home, but I was much calmer and more empathetic to her feelings. I'm not completely depressed, I feel content and I feel I can turn things around. All I needed was a brush with death to come around. We'll see how long it'll last. I still have plenty of leftovers of DMSO and SN if I feel the need to try again. I'll stick around on the forums to assist any questions with DMSO and SN, but my task with dying is on hiatus for awhile.
So I carried out an experiment with DMSO and SN, and almost killed myself, but because it was an experiment and I didn't want to die, I drove myself to the ER and nurses told me I passed out at the entrance. Don't remember much after that other than what my wife and staff told me when I came to. I didn't dream, I didn't experience any NDE's, just darkness, and just a light switch, I wake up. I was in the ICU for a week, then moved to recovery unit for a few days, and then was discharged on Thursday.
Didn't get admitted to the mental ward because the doctors knew it was DMSO and that something I touched which caused Methemoglobinemia in my blood. I didn't tell them anything about SN, even though I slathered the DMSO/SN solution on my skin and drank a small dose of it. So it could've been anything and they counteracted the condition with Methylene Blue. They said my methemoglobinemia levels were 34% which can be fatal. anything over 40% is fatal, but because my blood is anemic, the reaction was much swifter and it almost was fatal hence the longer stay in the ICU for monitoring purposes.
So the experiment, luckily I wrote it down on a sticky note of my ingredients and dosages to pass on in the DMSO resource thread. I mixed 10g of SN with 50mL of DMSO and applied to my arms and chest area, it smelled like garlic, so I did a couple of drops of this olive oil essence I have to make it smell like Lightly smelling garlic Brut Cologne. I wrote that I didn't feel anything for 10 minutes. So lets kick it up a bit. I mixed 5g of SN with 25mL of DMSO in a small tea cup, dissolved it, then drank the mixture. I wrote it tasted like garlic and hot dogs, kinda burning like tabasco sauce or heavily seasoned food in the back of my throat. I don't know which happened first either the SN kicked in my blood stream from the skin application because I started feeling dizzy, kinda drowsy, and was thinking "Oh shit, the SN i drank gonna kick in soon, must get to ER". Ever drove drunk in the daytime with the afternoon sun in your eyes? It royally sucks, but I made it without any incidents on the road. Risky? Yes. Dumb as hell. You bet.
So how do I feel? I get periodic chest pains when I do some exertion, I haven't tried riding my bike, and going up stairs and any walking gets me a bit winded. I'm on iron pills and have an appointment to get oxygen treatment for the next 2 weeks. An interesting thing is, my will to die has been reduced significantly. I feel a bit smarter, more calmer, my wife scared as hell but she stayed by my side the entire time which really meant a lot. I shared my jello with her in the recovery unit. We still argued when I got home, but I was much calmer and more empathetic to her feelings. I'm not completely depressed, I feel content and I feel I can turn things around. All I needed was a brush with death to come around. We'll see how long it'll last. I still have plenty of leftovers of DMSO and SN if I feel the need to try again. I'll stick around on the forums to assist any questions with DMSO and SN, but my task with dying is on hiatus for awhile.
