Discussion Existential dread

[rigsid]

You all ever get a feeling of existential dread when you remember this is actually your life, and that you're stuck like this?

Here i am trapped in the wrong body with nothing to live for, no hope of any friendship or romance, and lacking in even any aspirations.

Being unable to find anything to buy that can actually kill me is driving me insane. I do not want to wake up to this shit again. I'm young and healthy so unless I do something about that I'm going to experience a LOT more of this hell.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I just always find it so tortuous and dreadful to suffer in this existence, to me existence is always an abomination that just causes harm and suffering and I find it so painful to be conscious in thus existence I just always saw as a mistake and for me every second is torturous to exist.

No matter what this existence should never be imposed, I always suffer so much from being trapped in this terrible, torturous existence, it's just so horrific how we exist in this reality where humans do all they can to force and prolong the suffering and torture of existing, denying the option to cease existing peacefully is a terrible crime to me as all I want is to be gone, I find it so horrific how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

 

[blacksand]

All the time.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah, it is frightening. I feel so daunted by living. What possibly could be ahead- the bad obviously but then, even a best case scenario looks exhausting now. Plus, what I'm going to need to do to myself to escape this.

I find I'm not only scared, I'm resentful too. That I am alive. That I'm expected to remain alive and pay for it. And that one way or another, I'm going to experience dying.