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pauly369

pauly369

Dying Inside.
Mar 16, 2025
161
I never asked for any of this shit : this thing called life.
I dont even know where I really come from, wether I was made by some God or a fucking alien, or wether Im part of some fucked - up cosmic accident.
This body of mine isnt really me anyway because its just a collection of water and chemicals and operates mostly of its own free will.
I find consciousness disturbing - what the fuck is consciousness anyway ?
I have no purpose than to suffer in this meat prison body with a mind that is broken.
Im rambling I know, but I just want to die now so fucking very badly.
 
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Halfhourdays

Halfhourdays

"Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt."
Mar 14, 2025
621
Well put: Existence is torment. I didn't ask to be born.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,334
agree. i'm just chemical reactions. i'm also a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain.

there is no purpose , no intelligent design of this torture chamber they call a brain and human body.

all life including humans descended from a single ancestor a cell .

A cell evolved 4 bilion years ago, previously the chemical precursors to this cell evolved . it was all an accident of chemistry , a very horrifying accident that causes all this sufffering. 1.6 million humans attempt suicide per year in the U.S. alone showing how bad life is .


brand new research shows the much glorified human brain can think at only 10 bits per second. computers , ai etc now can process at gigabits per second a bilion times faster already and improving rapidly . that's why we can only think about 1 thing at a time . compare this to ai which can read 80,000 words per minute . ai will surpass humans in all ways soon




 
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pauly369

pauly369

Dying Inside.
Mar 16, 2025
161
agree. i'm just chemical reactions. i'm also a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain.

there is no purpose , no intelligent design of this torture chamber they call a brain and human body.

A cell evolved 4 bilion years ago, previously the chemical precursors to this cell evolved . it was all an accident of chemistry , a very horrifying accident that causes all this sufffering. 1.6 million humans attempt suicide per year in the U.S. alone showing how bad life is .

Absolutely agree.
I dont see any other rational explanation for it all, other than its just one big chemical freakshow.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand, I also find it so torturous to exist, all I personally hope for is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again, to me existence truly does feel like the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to never suffer ever again, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I hope you find peace.
 
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