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fishtacos4me
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- Apr 15, 2021
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I recently lost something especially important to me. Its left me with a deep sense of loss, like I'm mourning.
I lost my dream world.
All my dreams at night take place in the same town. It's a consistent setting in which night after night I do basically the same things in the same place. I encounter the same roads, same park, same stores, same building with slight variations. I see some of the same people over and over each night. I like it there; it's a nice place and I know my way around.
Recently it broke. I'm pretty spectrumy and I don't like changes like this. I don't like being in a strange place with strange people, not knowing what's going to happen next. Now I'm just dumped into some random place with some random people doing some random thing. It's awful. I don't even want to go to sleep anymore.
I've always had insomnia, but at least I knew that when I did get to sleep, I was going somewhere pleasant. Now there is not even that and it's making all my dreams into nightmares.
I feel homesick. Even my dreams are broken. I am not okay. I am broken.
I lost my dream world.
All my dreams at night take place in the same town. It's a consistent setting in which night after night I do basically the same things in the same place. I encounter the same roads, same park, same stores, same building with slight variations. I see some of the same people over and over each night. I like it there; it's a nice place and I know my way around.
Recently it broke. I'm pretty spectrumy and I don't like changes like this. I don't like being in a strange place with strange people, not knowing what's going to happen next. Now I'm just dumped into some random place with some random people doing some random thing. It's awful. I don't even want to go to sleep anymore.
I've always had insomnia, but at least I knew that when I did get to sleep, I was going somewhere pleasant. Now there is not even that and it's making all my dreams into nightmares.
I feel homesick. Even my dreams are broken. I am not okay. I am broken.