Venting Everyone is better off without me, I need to take myself out of the situation

[HyenaRadio]

I don't really know what this is but I feel the need to vent about it. Ignore it if you want to.

I'm such a toxic and anxious person. I'm a burden to everyone around me. I have generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder, it's almost too much to handle. There is so much good in this world and it hurts that I'll never be apart of it. I will never get better. I make life for my friends, family, and boyfriend worse and I need to ctb for their sake. They spend so much energy taking care of me and I know they're starting to resent it. I'm a huge mess and I need to set everyone free from it. I don't want to drag down the people I love with me. I don't deserve any of them.

 

[overbleed.]

I don't really know what this is but I feel the need to vent about it. Ignore it if you want to.

I'm such a toxic and anxious person. I'm a burden to everyone around me. I have generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder, it's almost too much to handle. There is so much good in this world and it hurts that I'll never be apart of it. I will never get better. I make life for my friends, family, and boyfriend worse and I need to ctb for their sake. They spend so much energy taking care of me and I know they're starting to resent it. I'm a huge mess and I need to set everyone free from it. I don't want to drag down the people I love with me. I don't deserve any of them.

They'll only blame themselves if you ctb and think that they should've taken more care of you. I'm not stopping you it's your life but I'm just saying you'll make their lives a lot more miserable

 

[HyenaRadio]

They'll only blame themselves if you ctb and think that they should've taken more care of you. I'm not stopping you it's your life but I'm just saying you'll make their lives a lot more miserable

I've definitely thought of that and all I can do is hope that's not the case. They're all amazing people who I feel like will eventually move on, I'm sure they'll have amazing lives without me burdening them. But it definitely is something to consider!

 

[overbleed.]

I've definitely thought of that and ball I can do is hope that's not the case. They're all amazing people who I feel like will eventually move on, I'm sure they'll have amazing lives without me burdening them. But it definitely is something to consider!

same I have many friends and family doing whatever they can to stop me from ctbing. Which is why intense guilt strikes me whenever I think about how they're react if I'm gone.
I was able to kinda push away the urge to ctb by watching videos of parents who have lost their kids and even going to the funeral of a girl who recently died in my class and how everyone was breaking down. It made me feel too guilty to do it so uh ig try making yourself super guilty?

 

[OceanBlue]

I thought about this before, and it wouldn't be fair on others to decide for them how to feel about you.

You might have anxiety bc your sense of worth is damaged, but that doesn't mean you're a burden.

Wish you the best

 

[HyenaRadio]

You might have anxiety bc your sense of worth is damaged, but that doesn't mean you're a burden.

Wish you the best

I definitely needed to hear this today, thank you!